Homeless Family Needs Your Kindness

So before I go any further with my story, I want everyone to know that this is a very long story, but in order for those of you to understand why I'm doing this, I need you to read the entire story behind it. To those who care about me or who have been reaching out to me are the individuals who first and foremost are the ones who really need to read this entire life unfolding event for me. It would mean the world to me if you do. I just wanted to inform everyone that I am doing okay, for the most part, but also I am struggling at the same time. I know a lot of you have been asking me questions and I have been reluctant when deciding on whether or not to even do this or not because I don't want anyone taking this posting the wrong way or having any negative comments coming my way, but I thought that everyone should finally know what's going on with me. I'm not going into full detail, but all I will say is this. Currently as of about a week to a week and a half or so ago myself, Scarlett, and my dog Allie have been homeless. We're currently living out of my car and it hasn't been easy in such a confined space, but we're doing the best to make it work with what little I have to do so. I am getting put in contact with resources to try to get us into a place, but it is a process. It's even harder when I have a dog with me, but I think I'm pretty close to getting her registered as a emotional support animal, but I'm not 100% on all the exact legal loops and whatnot that are required to do so. Also, a lot of places including shelters, won't take in all 3 of us and I'm not letting any of us get left behind. I'm still not very confident in my abilities to go back to working full time because my health still isn't the greatest, but that doesn't matter to me right now. All that matters is that I take care of the 3 of us and I will do whatever it takes to make sure we're all okay no matter the cost. I will not be disclosing anything in regards to why or how we came to be in this unfortunate situation because that's my business only. I will just say that because of how bad my health got, it made me unable to work, even having my doctor's, therapist, and other's who knew me personally advising me that it was in my best interest not to work because it was only going to make my health worse. Well those words turned into reality and due to that unfortunate reality, even when doing little things around the house, they started to become extremely difficult for me and I was never able to go find work again as of March 21, 2024 and financially, let's just say that it really took a toll on us and here we are today. There's a lot more than just that, but those are the details I'm keeping to myself. I will not answer any questions about my relationship status or questions like "Why didn't you do this? Or why didn't that person do that? Or anything that I know will cause me to go into a deeper depression or make anyone else look bad, or that will bring me to feel any lower about myself than I already do currently. If anything I'm proud of myself that I'm able to admit all of this to everyone, including myself that the decisions I've made these past 2 years haven't been the best, my actions towards individuals that I truly care about have or can be described as selfish/insensitive/inconsiderate/tactless and many other words. I've been thrown some horrible scenarios these past 3 years that I could've handled better especially when those close to me like friends, family, my fiance, and anyone else who may have felt my actions towards them not to be in the norm I guess you could say based on who they know me to truly be. These situations kept breaking me down and testing me to my ultimate limits further and further each time and as of where I am now, it clearly led me to hit rock bottom and I sincerely regret my actions towards so many people and even towards myself. I let everything get to me and tear me down instead of staying strong and fighting for a better life and future for my family and I. I'm so incredibly sorry to those that I have wronged or made feel like they might've done something wrong to make things worse. It was never any of you. The problem was me and I absolutely hate that it took me to hit the lowest point of my entire life to finally wake up and realize that instead of sitting around crying about everything and complaining about things, I could've been out there changing my life way sooner and I wouldn't be here in my current position. Guess what though? The fire within me to fight back and prove to myself and daughter that life can and will be great again and I'm not giving up ever again no matter how bad things look right now. I'm an adult, I'm an amazing mother who has just unfortunately been dealt a rough hand in life these last 3 years, but God knows as well as I do deep down inside that I can overcome this for my daughter and I, life will be great again and I will never let myself sink this low again. This part is hard for me to admit and I honestly don't know how many people would be willing to help me after reading this knowing how passionate I am in general and how much I love my dog and daughter and will do anything for them, including ask anyone who may be willing to help me out with anything financially to help me get back on my feet would be a true blessing. I will be posting weekly updates from this point on, but everything I post will only be positive. I will be sharing what I know will be successful updates about the progress I am making physically, mentally, and emotionally. The old Nicole is gone and the new me sees nothing but a bright future with me overcoming any obstacles put before me to show myself I can do it, but even more importantly, to show my daughter that no matter what happens in life, she can never give up and that God is watching over her, I am always going to be there for her, and that she too will grow up to become a strong and successful woman who I will always be proud of. So please,if anyone can help out Scarlett, Allie (My Dog), and I during these extremely difficult times, we'd greatly appreciate it and want anyone to know who is willing to help us out that you're not only contributing to us to help us get back on our feet in these hard times, but you're literally helping us change our future for the better to become stronger individuals and that kind of help is beyond anything I can even begin to repay them back for that type of support. Any help would be greatly appreciated to help the 3 of us going forward whether it be for dog food, emergency funds, gas, a place to shower, money to save to get us into a place, etc. I need all the help I can get during these trying times and while others are showing their support in helping us, I will be out there doing my part to also help provide a better future for us as well. I just need help getting through this insanely difficult part of my life and anyone is free to reach out to me to ask me any questions if they see fit to do so.