Been having lots of confrontations w/myself lately and while I’m still figuring myself out fully, I have came to understand that a lot of the issues I have with being perceived /being seen socially is actually a byproduct of pretty intense dysphoria that I’ve been masking for years /ignoring because of… well the demons but anyways

I’m still taking every step-by-step because I’ve never subscribed to the idea of gender binaries nor do I immediately want to assume that I have a specific journey ahead of me because every transition is unique. I actually started socially transitioning in 2019 but regressed later because… again the demons

However, currently I’m unhappy with my body hair and being perceived more day-to-day within professional contexts (and not just the club) has made me realise that I generally just want to be perceived in a more feminine light day-to-day without feeling the need to put on a full beat just to stomach myself because I deserve to love the way I look. I firstly want to start laser hair removal and I also want to explore ways to feminise my face (initially without the need for surgery and while I explore whether I wish to start hormones). My plan was just to take each thing step-by-step and if I still feel intensely dysphoric,

update: since i last posted my funding i have since started hormones and have been on this path for a wee while. I have explored laser hair removal but found this process really overstimulating so now im looking to explore electroysis.

i have been struggling financially for a while and have fallen behind on my rent. Im struggling to leave the house without having the guarantee of having money for taxis and with the rise in violence toward trans femmes only amplifying my existing stress levels