My name is Diane, I have stage 4 terminal cancer and just been told that my brain tumours are NOT operable I am 46 years old, I have a amazing husband Alan, I have a son callum and daughter Kayleigh and a beautiful 3 year old granddaughter Kyra, Who I adore with all my heart. We have all been through so much heart ache in the last nearly 3 years. We've worked so hard all our lives and lost everything due to Cancer. I was first diagnosed with cancer nearly 3 years ago.
I was getting severe headaches and went blind amongst other symptoms, they sent me for a scan and found a 5.5cm brain tumour. I had a emergency brain cranotomy to remove this monster, after being tested they found lung cells in the tumour, so it had travelled from my lung to my brain. After brain surgery I had high doses of brain radiation and radiation to my lung.
So because my cancer had spread I was now a stage 4 terminal. Then it spread to my chest my lymph glands so again I had high doses of radiation. All this radiation absolutely zaps you damaging all my nerves in my feet and damaging different parts of my insides and giving me necrosis. The steroids helped with pain and strength but they also caused a lot of damage.
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looked like a giant hamster lol 3 times now being bloated up on high steroids, ended up with steroid induced diabetes and to the point were I could only walk a few steps . It's been a crazy journey. Then 2 years after my brain cranotomy the cancer had come back in my brain, oh my god it was my worst nightmare after everything I'd been through and put my family through. There is no feeling that can explain how gut wrenching it is to see your loved ones all heartbroken and hurting because of me and it was out of my power, there was sod all I could do about it. The cancer and radiation was effecting my speach I could not communicate my hearing, my motorskills and lots more as this is a quick outline of what's gone on in the last few years so after my last radiation in December I was told I can not have anymore radiation in that area because I have brain necrosis and now I have received a letter saying that surgery was NOT a option anymore. This has broken me and my family I couldn't stop crying but as usual I keep a brave face on for the sake of my family, I gave my face myself a slap, gave my head a good wobbling and said F... it. No point in worrying about it, worrying wont get me nowhere, so that basic story and I've joined go fund me hopeing to get help to have some quality of life before I start to go down hill. My family are my world and I want to spend some quality time with them so that will be what the fund money is for. . I've never asked anybody for money but I've hit a brick wall with money and I feel totally useless because I've always earned it myself. I just want some fun xx
After a few months of all this going on we found out my gorgeous mum sarah had cancer to, it was found to late and we managed to get a few months with her before she passed away, my mum was amazing she lit up the room with laughter when she walked in. She was my best friend, I was numb, I was lost without her, it still breaks my heart to think about her, I miss her so much. Just before she died we had we had so many laughs racing each other on our disability scooters ha ha both of us ended up with wet knickers we laughed that hard. I'm glad she passed away peaceful and not in any pain that would of killed me to see her in pain. She decided to fight the cancer and was warned of the consequences but wanted to try it anyway and the chemo unblocked a artery in her neck that had been blocked for many years doe to a stroke she had many years ago. It was such a shock. My family was devastated, my family was falling apart, the heart of the family, my mum who held everything together was gone. It's breaking my heart writing this. You would of all loved her.
Thank you so much to each and everyone one of you in taking the time to read my story.
Lots of love and social distancing hugs to you all. Thank you from the bottom of my heart ❤ xx