David's needs and wishes dealing with stage 4 colon cancer

Hi, im david and a couple years ago i was diagnosed with stage 4 colon cancer. had my appendix removed due to it, and other surgeries related to that mess. i'll probably never get off chemo (and it has many serious negitive side effects) because of the type and severity of the cancer. https://www.healthline.com/health/colorectal-cancer/stage-4-colon-cancer-symptoms#fa-qs

according to my research i have 70% chance to live 5 years, which i really hope i do, but there's really no knowing. Due to cost of living increases and unexpected other things, my savings are shot, not that there was much to begin with. disability barely gives me enough to live off of, but im glad for what i get nontheless.

what im hoping for and why i came here is for a couple reasons- there's no chance in hell creamation services or anything similar are affordable for me, and i have no family to assist. i need to think about the future so there's the hard truth.

secondly, for quality of life in the time i have remaining on this earth, i'd like a gaming pc for distraction and entertainment purposes. i hope that's not too selfish to ask for.

thirdly, and lastly.. i would like to purchise a fedora to keep my head warm for when, not IF, i loose my hair again from chemo.

that's all it, in a nutshell as it were. i'm certinally not expecting any help from anyone, but i would be earnestly and honestly greatful for such. thank you everyone for taking the time to even just read this far. i wish all good mental and phsyical health.