David going to a doctor and paying bills

Hi, I hate doing this. I’m doing better than I ever have in many ways. I have a dream job and all that. However, there was a budget change at work and less stuff started getting published. So, since February, I’ve lost over four thousand dollars in revenue. I’ve been able to keep things going the last few months with way less, partly because of my tax returns, but mostly by not buying food for myself as much and things like that. However, it’s getting to be untenable. I’ve been having heart problems and I went to the emergency room a while back. My blood pressure isn’t great and the stress of deadlines, children, my mental issues, and dealing with my wife and mother-in-law’s issues aren’t helping any. The doctor at the ER told me to go to a cardiologist, but that’s impossible. I can pay bills and take care of the kids, but I can’t afford insurance, especially with losing what so far is basically a month and a half of income. On top of that, my glasses are falling apart and my laptop is on its way out. I need help. I’ve been doing this on my own for a while now, but that’s becoming impossible. I have beaten so many things in my life, by myself, but I can’t fight heart problems with willpower. A reduce in income can’t be overcome by me becoming a better person. I can’t feed myself and buy things for my kids with good intentions. This money is going to go towards going to a doctor, getting a new laptop, and hopefully building up a reserve. I’m not the type to ask for help, but I’m doing so now. So, please help.