Life's too short

Hey everyone, Joe (Edward) here. A few months ago I was in the hospital for just over a month because I found out I have severe chronic pacreatitis and lost %60 of my pancreas. I also found out I have a blood clot leading to my liver and one to my heart. All while fighting pneumonia and influenza A. It''s gotten worse..

Horribly actually...lol....I'm back in the hospital...the enzymes from the half pancreas keep filling up my body making me bloat like a pregnant chick. They drain it and chunks of meat keep coming out because the enzymes are eating my body from the inside out. They're also causing holes in my intestines which keep me malnourished. It's all unbearably excruciatingly painful. I was planning on driving in June to see my family in an RV my friend bought just for our journey but I can't work or save up money. The repairs, up keep and gas alone is expensive af. Alberta works doesn't cover all my meds. So im doing a GoFundMe but it makes me ashamed. I'm kind of wishing for my expiry date to come. Plus they found 3 more blood clots today. I want this last chance to go home before I'm a memory. So it's worth a try.