Wonderful friends and family helped financially with his memorial service, cremation and burial.
We really thought we would've had enough money by now to buy a headstone but here it is a year later and we are still not caught up. Our youngest daughter is in college and we're doing all we can to get her through.
We are just wanting a pretty basic headstone. I thought maybe if we could get several folks to donate a little, we could get enough to finally get him a headstone. It's worth a try, right?
Right now he has a little metal temporary plaque with his name and date. It makes me sad when I go out there or if someone wants to go visit him because it's so empty without a stone.
And frankly, it's a little embarrassing.
At least we buried him by a tree, and I plant flowers out there... but it still looks so.. barren.
I had a wooden cross my mom had made where the little pole is but someone broke it. Found it in pieces laying by the bench.
The little stone on it says 'beloved son'. Thankfully, no one has stolen that. I've put out several things that weren't worth much but that meant something and things kept getting stolen...
Thankfully he had a daughter well... a little early. But so very thankful he did because we still have part of him with us, and she is such a joy in our lives! She is 8 years old now.
He was such a FUNNY fun guy and always did something, anything to make us laugh. I miss that so very much! There will never be anyone like him.
He had bad anxiety and depression. He had just come home from treatment - he'd been gone over 8 months. He was so ready to start a new life! He was going to meetings every day and anxious about his new life but open to all of the possibilities... he had just found a sponsor that night.
Then we went to bed and when his dog woke me up I went to his room and found him unconcious.. we couldn't wake him up so we called the ambulance. They said he had respiratory and cardiac failure. 4 days later we disconnected his respirator. He never woke up or regained conciousness. He evidently got hold of some bad drugs - I'm guessing he was so anxious he thought he could secretly escape for a little bit - and escape, he did.
I honestly don't think he meant to die. We were so close, I know he would've left me a note or something..
It was so sad that he left us on the upswing with so much hope in his life.. but on second thought I'm glad it was then instead of during a time of him having no hope..
But either way, I still can't believe my son is gone. I couldn't explain to anyone who hasn't experienced it what a terrible thing it is to lose a child.. and if you haven't, I sure hope you never understand.
So please help us? Just a small donation will help.
This boy needs a headstone. It's the least we can do now.
It means so much to us.
Thank you so much for reading our story!
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