Domestic Violence Survivor

On February 21st I was shot 11 times by my ex boyfriend, who is also my sons father. My grandmother and uncle was also shot 8 times in the crossfire and my 3 year old son witnessed the incident. The abuse started after i had my son in 2017, as a small dispute that got worse over time. About a year ago the abuse became excessive and unbearable to the point he nearly took my life. My mother passed away when i was a child and I don't have a lot of family and he took advantage of my situation. When i realized i was in an abusive relationship i tried my hardest to break away from it by being able to provide for my son. So I moved into my own apartment  without telling him, but he eventually found out. He broke the restraining order by showing up at my house and resisted arrest when the police arrived. The next day i came home and he walked out of my utility closet with a gun and began to threaten me and my grandmother because he was upset i signed the lease without him. He then began to bust every window in the apartment out  and the landlord asked me to leave. They didn't want to relocate me out of fear of this happening again. Due to my living situation he eventually persuaded me to go back with threats and force. The abuse was getting worse at this point i had a black eye on multiple occasions i went to the police and filed police reports. None of that mattered to him, he continued to threaten me and my family and friends. Out of fear for my family safety it was more convenient for me to go back. I saved all my money up and bought a car and after a month he crashed it by purposely running into a garage. My situation started to affect my job because i had to continuously call off because of my eye being closed shut. I was working for the united states postal service for a little over a year as a mail carrier. I had to inform my job of my situation and the situation got so bad that my co workers would walk me to my car after seeing him circle my job.  The post office said that they would help and relocate me because i was there over a year and was just made a full-time regular. I went and bought another car but i tried my hardest to hide what kind of car i had from him, but he eventually found after he went through my phone and saw a picture of it. Which ended in another fight because i didn't tell him i bought a car. A few days after that he ran my brand new car into a pole and busted all the windows out and chased me with the bat. He went back and got my son and took him with him while he hid from the police. He kept my son away from me until i was ready to be with him again.I filed a police report but they said it was nothing they can do to get my baby back because he is the father and we'd have to go to court and told me to file another restraining order. I continued to go to work and make money so that i can fix my car and get another apartment. One day i went into work and they pulled me into the office and said they had to let me go because a man came into the post office and informed the manager that i had stolen mail, and that he had found mail from my route in his garbage mixed with my sons birth certificate. Even though that killed my spirit i got my car fixed and continued to look for an apartment for me and my son. I stumbled across an ad for an apartment in my price range and decided to go and see it. Even though i had second thoughts i didn't think he would take it this far, but once i arrived and walked to the door i was surprised by my sons father who had set up the fake ad for the apartment and because i didn't want to take him back to where i was hiding to protect my loved ones i went back. I also wanted to see my son, but as soon as i got the opportunity i left again with my son. He would still harass me by randomly popping up, calling none stop, fighting me anywhere he saw me and stealing money out of my accounts while i continued to work and provide for my son. This past valentines day as i was driving down the street i heard something in my backseat and when i turned around i saw that it was my sons father who hid in my trunk until i got into the car.   I stayed at hotels any chance i got to get a peace of mind because I didn't want to put other peoples lives in jeopardy. Every time i tried to run away he always found me and it seemed as though no one was willing to help me because to them i was constantly going back. In reality i thought that was the right thing to do to keep everybody safe. On February 21st after he waited for me to come home he pulled on the side of me and asked me to come with him. At this point i was tired so i refused and that's when he shot me, my uncle, and grandmother. He shot the car up while my son was inside and emptied the entire clip.  As i lay in my hospital bed after overcoming something so traumatizing i still feel afraid, because he is still is out on the streets. There is barely any media coverage and i will be coming home from the hospital soon. The purpose of this go fund me is to spread awareness, we often hear ourselves say " couldn't be me" and god has a funny way of proving us wrong. I hope this reaches anyone who is currently going through a domestic situation and gives you the courage to leave. These type of situations everyone assume doesn't happen anymore but only because it is not talked about enough. Hopefully this will reach the right people and he is arrested and i can finally start over without being afraid of things turning for the worst. I'm afraid that he will find me like he always does and i may not survive again. Anything can help with securing a secure place for me and my son and helping me get back on my feet. My liver is damaged and i'm in extreme pain i will never be myself again. I don't want to put any more family members lives in jeopardy and he knows all of my addresses.  If you cant help at least share to spread awareness I'm so damaged at this point mentally emotionally physically and i just want this to end. If you are going through anything similar leave, as soon as possible. His behavior isn't normal,  cute, or funny. Don't ever think he wont because its some men out here that will. Everybody may not be as blessed to have a second chance and tell their story. I'm so  grateful that i am still here to tell mine, and hopefully my situation will help another. Everyone always assume leaving is easy, but leaving nearly costed me my life. I just want to come home from the hospital and heal until im able to adjust to my new life anything will help. Thank you for reading my story