hey guys, as some of you know, my mom and I reached a breaking point in our relationship and as a result, she suddenly withdrew her contribution to my rent, days before it was due several months ago.

this was not the first time she's done something like that -- but it took this last time to see things clearly & have the strength to distance myself from her-- and I've been basically scrambling ever since to fully support myself. my dad helped me the next month but held it against me and used it as an excuse to hurl amounts of verbal & psychological abuse that I didn't know he had in him.

I haven't spoken to either of them since and to say it's been the most trying time of my life has been an understatement.

I know it seems like I live da life on IG but yooo this is false (i eat at home & often sit w friends at din while they eat etc lol) and my friends can tell u i've been a stressy mess these past few months and have never cried so much in my life.

I've managed to get by these past few months until now. I'm waiting to get paid from 2 jobs and they're both late (this is par for the course in styling) and I don't have enough to make rent this month. my aunt + uncle helped me a few times earlier this year but I don't feel comfortable pressing them. In the meantime, I'm hunting for a second job that is stable so this never happens again.

guys, i'm so sorry to even ask. as you can probably see, i've been selling a lot of services n offers recently which have helped get me through these past few months.

literally, i've gotten by with a little help from my friends. it's been surreal and i've been so touched by the kindness and generosity of my homies.

anyways, any little bit helps. please excuse how that sounds. it makes me want to throw up too, but i'm so sorry to ask and please do not feel compelled to contribute in any way.

I'm forcing myself to ask for help when I need it because I would want you to do the same and I believe in the goodness of friends & community.

i love you guys so much and can't thank you enough. lee lee.