My name is Kelsey Reid.

I have recently turned 20 and have been in and out of hospital struggling with Anorexia since I was 13.

I have never had any appropriate treatment plans just threats/ sectioning which has got me to where I am now.

I have been on ICU 4 times, had stage 4 kidney failure, I have permanent damage to my heart and kidneys.

I live in cornwall but have been moved to CYGNET ELOWEN in DERBY. My mum is my biggest support and is getting no help with money to come and see me. I am very close to my mum and without her have no nope and become suicidal and depressed.

I have horses, hope and motivation. I was on Perran ward in Cornwall making progress eating food and having drink! I had leave 5 hours a day, had a good friend, went to the donkey sanctuary and had plans for my 20th birthday.

I was woken and given 1 hour notice that I would be travelling to Derbyshire! I knew this was an option but as I was improving and things were going well I didn’t think this would happen.

Since arriving on Alina ward I have deteriorated mentally and physically. I am unable to see my mum, I cannot see my nan due to her being too unwell and I cannot see my horses (who were the reason I stopped self harming back in 2019! and the reason I was no longer suicidal). This has made me feel very low and down.

Under 1-1 supervision I was able to cut my wrist extremely badly to the bone, to make matters worse my sensory processing disorder was not cared about and I was threatened to be put in holds if I refused to sit in a&e. So I had to sit in a loud bright waiting room for 12 hours bleeding on uncomfortable chairs (I am severely underweight) and the lights/ noises caused me extreme distress.

Back on the ward no progress was made with me. I wasn’t able to leave my room as the other patients were extremely triggering for me (at Perran ward I had friends and was out of my room all the time) I was bed bound sleeping all day and up all night.

I became severely depressed and suicidal. The ward manager is rude and abrupt with no understanding. She said I would only get leave if I engaged despite me explaining if I leave my room I would relapse with self harm (which I did).

I have fallen into bad habits and my OCD (again which has been forgotten about) has spiralled out of control. I spend 6 hours cleaning and obsessing and staff don’t offer support.

Physically I have declined. I can only get fresh air by walking down many steps which I am too weak to do so hardly get fresh air, all of the doors are too heavy for me to push open as well and I have trapped my fingers in them many times as well as having 2 falls landing me in a&e suspected fractures as the unit isn’t safe.

Recently I was able to take an overdose. I was supposed to be checked every hour to make sure I am breathing and alert. However after 10 hours I was found unresponsive taking 4 breaths a minute. 10 people failed me that night, not correctly checking on me.

I have been in the general hospital up in Derby ever since but need to be transferred back to Cornwall.

Other patients have also ended up in the general hospital, one was almost a fatality and still we don’t know what her prognosis is.

The reason I took the overdose is because I was not being asked to open my mouth after medication despite past overdoses.

The only ‘treatment’ I have had is drinking supplement drinks in my bedroom under observation that’s it. They were not happy with this so decided to say I must drink them out of my room which due to my severe OCD, SPD and anxiety isn’t possible. So they then cone into my room restrain me brutally and NG feed me 700mls in 10 minutes! This has caused significant harm to my body also my nose. It has caused me to have severely low potassium and I already have a damaged heart.

They have no reason of why I need to drink them outside of my room.

They don’t check on my physical health well at all, they do not do daily obs or blood sugars etc. I feel neglected.

I took the overdose as I couldn’t deal with another day having 700mls pumped into me I. only 10 minutes, causing unintentional vomiting (I am scared of being sick and have a past of emetephobia). So I decided to try to end my life.

I am NOT suicidal. I have goals, ambitions and motivations. I want to train my horses and ride them, I want to move forward in education, I want to eat food not supplements but the food they provide is shocking for a vegetarian. The dietician even commented saying that I eat too much!

I need to get back to a Cornwall inpatient unit to get the correct care I need to get better.

We need money for the time being (whilst this is investigated by the appropriate legal team to get me to a safe unit) for my mum to just be able to travel up to see me and provide me with food and drink as family are not around to help.

My mum drives 5 hours and sleeps overnight in the car, in the cold and it’s only getting colder. She can’t afford food for herself as spends it all on me to keep me going as i’m not appropriately fed.

She’s in her late 40s and has mobility problems, a shoulder and knee injuries.

I don’t think she feels safe sleeping in the car at night and I feel she’s just putting on a brave face for me. She’s lost weight, isn’t sleeping, sick with worry and I worry about her driving so sleep deprived.

Please I am not the type of person to do this but I feel such desperation. If every person donated £1 it would all add up.

I don’t feel safe at this hospital and it shows! In this hospital that’s only been open 3 months, already there have been 3 ALMOST fatalities.

Please share with everyone possible!!