Im a mum to 4 adult children and a 9 month old grandson. I've always had a loving caring positive attitude, and lived my life selflessly and committed to my family.

I live in freeling with my partner Richard.

Earlier this year I began a traineeship in an early learning centre and started my studies toward my certificate 3 as an Educator. Around 6 months ago I started noticing some changes in my body, in particular my loss of appetite and unable to eat much before feeling full and terribly uncomfortable. My back hurt so badly and I felt a wreck. I put this down to my career change, lifting babies and toddlers constantly. "It's just the industry", people said.

I went to my Doctor around 3 months ago he listened to my concerns and put in place for some blood tests to be done.

Once the results to my blood test came back, he sat with me telling me there were concerns for possible cancer. My heart sank and I felt numb

He issued another blood test just in case it was a false positive. He rang me on the following Sunday and said that, unfortunately, my levels had not decreased in the second blood test. He asked me to come and see him again. My doctor said, "It's looking very much like a cancer diagnosis".

Then began my journey of CT scan, MRI, 2nd CT, more blood tests. At this point, my doctor said it was looking like pancreatic cancer and that I had a mass at the head of my pancreas at least 5cms more than likely bigger.

I then had an endoscopic ultrasound. This confirmed pancreatic cancer, and that I also had cancer attached to some of my blood vessels. The tumor was measuring just under 6cms.

The Oncology team said that at this stage, the tumour is inoperable. The plan is to have chemotherapy to shrink the tumor in the hope to remove it, It could be a long journey is all they are able to tell me.

Due to the physical need of my traineeship with caring for babies and toddlers daily, the long drive to Salisbury and full-time study I was no longer able to continue. I was forced to cease my full-time traineeship, feeling my health was an absolute priority to stop and rest and restore. Thankful to my children and partner for being diligent in making this known to me. I kept thinking and saying "I cant afford to not work"

Iam reaching out to Family and friends for any financial support. To help me a little while Im struggling with some financial needs. Fuel costs and parking both at LMH and RAH. Two of my children soon to be married. Doing my best to live within my means, with some centrelink assistance, but have a few extra needs this side of christmas

Praying and hoping to beat this with so much to live for.

Thanks and God bless