Hello everyone, my name is Corrie and I suppose I'll tell you my story from the beginning. First, I'll explain the pictures. The first 3 are from a few years before everything started to go downhill, and the last is me today…

I had my daughter when I was 25, and she's my one and only child, my one and only pregnancy. I wanted to have her; she was very planned. It didn't work out with her father, but that was okay because she was all I really wanted. But when she was 3, my mother asked me to sign her over so she could get the benefits I wasn't getting for her. Unlike my mother, I didn't have her to live off her. I worked and I paid for EVERYTHING that she needed. You see, I had stopped letting her babysit because the last time I did, when I took a break and went to drop off milk for her, my daughter wouldn't let go of my neck. She did NOT want to go back to my mom. So that was it for me.

When I refused to sign her over, my mom called DCF and told them I had a warrant. They wouldn't do anything about that, so she called them back and told them I did drugs around her. With a warrant, she put me in a bad situation, but what was most important was protecting her from my mother. I had started getting Lortabs prescribed, and when they stopped, I found them other places. So I chose to give her to my uncle and his girlfriend while I had to take care of my situation. But I never realized how I wouldn't be able to handle living without my heart, and after my situation was handled, I spiraled downward into a deep addiction. One I couldn't pull myself out of. After missing one visit, my family who lived in Hawaii came and got her and took her from me forever. I haven't seen her in 16 years, and she's now 19. I wish I hadn't taken so long to get control over my life, but it is what it is.

And that's what led me to where I am now, asking strangers for help for the most basic of things. Forgive me for being so long, but I want the whole truth to be known.

Now to what's happening now, I just spent 25 days in jail for something I didn't start. I did do it, but I was defending myself. Because of it, I'm now on probation and also can't go home. Because of how much I isolated myself from the world, I have one friend that I've stayed in touch with and zero family. I have no help getting my stuff on the one chance I'll have. Plus, when I went to jail, my skin was so bad from the house, I'm not sure it's a good idea to even walk in now that for the first time in years, I'm healed and sober. I haven't felt so wide awake in years, but I need clothes, shoes, and basic essentials if I have any hope of staying sober and completing probation because they MADE IT VERY CLEAR, I will go to prison if I mess up, and I've been out a week with just two outfits and nothing else.

I need help finding somewhere more positive to stay, and all the things I have to complete plus the cost of probation. I'm determined by any means necessary to stay clean and sober and make the most of the only chance I'll be given to turn things around before my daughter's ready to find me. I thank EVERYONE if for nothing other than taking the time to read my story....

God Bless Everyone

I can't live sober in the shadow of my old drunk and high life . I plan to start posting my whole process thru the world of felony probation facing up to 5 years if I violate,other pending charges I need prayers for to make this my absolute last chance. I know when my family sees me doing good they'll come back in my life. Thank you to everyone who Can understand where I'm at. And all those who have already been there my heart goes out to you. It's like waking from a nightmare. All I want is to be clean and sober . Find a good job. Be alive. Free period. ☺️

it’s been 13 days since I started this but wanted to update my pictures of me … today is day 40 clean, and 13 days since free. I’m still sober, thru the downs and ups. Have my brothers and sister and sister in law and my older brothers oldest son back in my life already, but I have a lot to prove b4 I’ll be trusted. I still need help with basics, rent for a sober living house, help with everything I’ll need to start working…. Any help will be appreciated…. I thank god for getting me this far… and thank everyone who relates to my situation. And any who are able to help. God bless EVERYONE!!!