Contribute to Soren's gender nullification surgery

Most people are familiar with the idea of a transgender person spending much of their life yearning for an affirming surgery that will help their body finally feel like their own. But what is it like when you grow up not knowing if the surgery you're dreaming of even exists?

I've always felt a sense of longing for depictions of sexless bodies, particularly in fiction. Characters who look humanlike in almost every way, but are blank where their genitals would be, have always sparked gender envy. I wanted to get rid of what I was given (at birth and in puberty) and have a smooth pelvic region like theirs. But I thought it was just that: fiction. There's the more well-known "MtF" or "FtM" surgeries, but there's no such thing as a surgery that will get rid of your reproductive parts entirely without replacing them with something else, right?

A few years ago, I discovered that was wrong.

Gender nullification surgery exists. As soon as I learned this, I knew that I too could have hope for a body that would finally feel like mine. I took some time to decide if it was realistic for me, and I spent late 2023 and all of 2024 researching, pursuing therapy, and finding a surgeon. And now, at last, my surgery is scheduled: in September 2026, I can finally achieve the image I spent so much of my life thinking was impossible.

Of course, I'm doing this for myself, but I'm hoping to dedicate my experience to the transgender community on a wider scale, too. Throughout this process, there's been so little information on nullification surgery, and beyond the basic details that are common to other gender-affirming surgeries, I've been navigating it largely anew. I've been logging my experiences finding the right surgeon, and when the surgery finally happens, I'll document the process and help share all the knowledge I've so painstakingly gathered. I want to spread the word, because I know there are folks out there like me, who dream of this surgery but aren't even aware that it exists. There's a relative wealth of guidance for what to expect for "MtF" and "FtM" surgery, and I want to be able to offer that for people who envision their body as just not having a gender down there at all.

The surgery as a whole is a lofty financial goal, so I've started this GoFundMe small. $5,000 USD would be enough to cover the gynecology portion of the surgery. I'm also utilizing my and my partner's savings, and doing art commissions. If we hit our $5,000 goal, I'll share the next goal along with more information. Thank you from the bottom of my heart to anyone who's read or donated!