Chris Stout’s Final Resting Expenses

Yesterday, my brother, Chris, lost his battle to addiction. We don't know exactly what happened, it happened so quickly, but what we are sure of, it was a direct result of drug use. We have so many questions and don't have many answers yet, and don't know what answers we will ever get, but the toxicology report came back yesterday and showed Chris did have meth in his system. When I asked the doctor as I stood at Chris' feet while all the machines beeped and whirlled and whistled, "Should this be the end, would the cause of death be overdose?" His exact response was, "There's never a dose we suggest of meth. So any dose is an overdose." It wasn't always meth, the last hospitalization a few weeks ago was because of "spice" or "K-2" I argued with my mom that K-2 couldn't do that to you and I said "he is lying again!" But I have been educated to learn that it in fact can lead to seizures and worse. He struggled with opiods, alcohol, marijuana anything he could to get him to a "better place." It started with a prescription bottle of hydros back in 2000, one he was prescribed, (just for those who will question that part.) Chris had an addictive personality, but if we all are honest with ourselves, we all do. Some poisons grab hold on those personalities quicker and more fiercely for some. And while some are strong enough to resist or shake them, some people are fighting battles they don't even speak of and are tired, they are too tired to fight. So they succum and they will never win this battle alone. Thankfully we don't don't have to face these battles alone. Thankfully we have a chain breaking heavenly Father!!! One who, if we let Him, He will rescue us from the fire. Thank the good Lord for Chris' personality though, am I right??? Addictive was a tiny part. How would we even begin to describe his magnetic energy? He lit up the room with joy. His laughter was contagious and I can still hear it echoing in my head as I write this. I hope to never forget such a beautiful sound. He was always full of jokes and could make anyone laugh, even in the most heartbreaking situations. My God, how we need him right now!!! He was full of charm and charisma. He always used the Chris Farley line "I could sell a ketchup popsicle to a lady in white gloves!" And if you knew Chris even a little, you know it was absolutely true. To know him was to love him is an understatement. He was SO very loved!!! He touched every person he met in his own special way! I could go on forever and will have to continue this later today because the tears are not stopping and I'm trying to be strong for my momma. Oh he loved his momma!! "Momma's boy" is an understatement! Some people would think I was joking when I said he was the favorite, some knew it was true! I wasn't joking. He was always everybody's favorite but we were all okay with that! He loved so many and was loved by even more. Please send up all the prayers not only for my family - selfishly my mom, myself and my children but for every single person who knew him. Because this is a void that can't be filled and we are all hurting. "The world will never ever be the same.... and your to blame." He will be forever young. Forever 41. And our hearts will be forever broken