Chaz Bennett Funeral & Relocation for his Mother

 
Always take the time to check on those you love, because one day it may be too late. Right now I have the deepest regret that you could ever imagine. I regret not texting, I regret not calling, and I regret not taking the time to be a better friend and brother.

 

My youngest brother Chaz had been having a tough time over the past month like he often times did, and I just chalked it up as Chaz being Chaz, but looking back at it now this time was different. He had crossed my mind many times over the past month and I meant to call him several times and never did. Sunday he sent me a heartfelt message, and me being in the middle of "something important" gave him a half assed response, he deserved, and needed so much more than that. I told him I would message him later and I never got the chance.

 

Around 11pm on Sunday 5/10, I got the worst call that you could ever get. Chaz had shot and killed his step dad and took off on foot, nobody knows where he was headed but the police found him 2 blocks away. When ordered to drop the weapons, he turned the gun on himself and he sustained a serious head injury that put him in a vegetative state. Our family had to make the hard decision to remove him from life support.

 

That night my mom lost her entire world, she lived in a 700 square foot duplex with her husband, son and her favorite dog in the world, Daisy. A 1.5 lb Yorkie that she absolutely adored. That night she lost her husband, her dog (the dog was an accident) and her son. She'll never be able to go back to that house and her life will never be the same.

Chaz passed away 2 days later but was able to donate organs to save lives, the only silver lining in all of this. I think he would be very happy to know that his life ended, but would help others continue theirs.

 

Some backstory into Chaz’s Life:

When Chaz was an infant, he sustained a head injury that split the left and right hemispheres of his brain resulting in a month long stay in Primary Children’s Hospital. Throughout his childhood, he was always a bit behind and never quite developed into an independent adult, living at home until he passed away at 26. He would go through phases where he would want to be with friends and other times liked to be alone.

 

Chaz had his real life, and his internet personality. Aside from Chaz's internet personality, Chaz had a very loving and considerate side with a special love for animals. He adopted a mangy street cat and nursed it back to good health that went on the become his best friend seven years later. Even though Chaz was poor, he always worried and made sure Lisa had the best food and was taken care of. I especially loved how he would talk to my dog Zuko, "awww he's a cute little cow!" And give him all the pets. He even found a stuffed animal that looked just like Zuko and gave him to us as a gift.

 

There are a lot of things that led up to this over the past month, he had developed feelings for a girl he met online that was trolling him for entertainment sake. That relationship ended before it even physically started and it really tore him up. He stopped going to work and became incredibly depressed, turning to alcohol as a way to escape.

 

Chaz use to look up to Jeremy (his step dad) as the dad he never had and even wanted to change his last name to Hunter. Jeremy and his relationship with Chaz had changed sometime after Jeremy's mother passed away last year. Jeremy had a really hard time with the loss of his mother.

 

Chaz recently got a pair of electronic ear muffs for shooting that amplify sounds, he would sit in his room and listen to Jeremy "beat the shit out of my mom" and hear Jeremy tell my mom that they had to get Chaz out of the house because he didn't want him there anymore. More recently, Jeremy would accuse my mom of wanting to have a sexual affair with Chaz any time she would give him attention. For the record my mom said that Jeremy didn't physically abuse her, but was very verbally abusive, including the accusations. **She also did not want this to be made public, but I feel it’s an important detail to understand what Chaz was going through.** Chaz listened to a lot of things that were never meant for him to hear.

 

Chaz was incredibly drunk that day, he had consumed an entire gallon of wine. I think this was a major factor in him actually following through with something that I don't think he normally would have.  In Chaz's real life and internet personality he had a nature for obscenities, often calling people "cunts" but he was never violent. Like never. We would get in arguments, he would go on rants, but never once did he ever show actual signs of violence or even make threats.

 

I had a conversation with him a couple years ago because I was worried about him hurting himself and possibly others, he was so mad at me after he wouldn't talk to me for months because he couldn't believe that I would think that low of him, that he would never ever hurt a fly, let alone another person. He always held that stance and often commented on how bad violence was for gun rights, It was a firm belief he had for almost his entire life.

 

Jeremy- I know you had your own issues and even though you were the way you were in the end, you didn't deserve this and I'm sorry.

Mom- I love you and I am so terribly sorry that you lost your entire world in an instant. Chaz loved you so much, I wish he would have known the pain this would have caused you, he never would have did it.

Chaz- My brother, I love you so much. I always did, even when you were angry with me I just wanted us to be ok. Our relationship was more important to me than I had ever let you know. I wish I had another chance to be there for you.
 
There is a funeral service scheduled for 1;00pm on Wednesday , may 27th at the Cedar City Cemete