Our momma’s journey

I Never EVER in a million years thought I would be sitting in a hospital room with my beautiful momma in the middle of the night making this page. My heart is broken, my soul is lost and my body and life feel empty, putting it mildly ! Last month my grandfather (Deb’s dad ) was put into the hospital with endocarditis (a infection inside of the heart -on his aortic valve) he ended up passing away from this awful infection and I was along side my mom for support the whole way through. She took it terribly, her daddy was her favorite person her whole life . One week passed and we have to return to Kansas again, for his funeral. By this time my mom is on antibiotics from a cold that we all got from being at the hospital with my grandpa, didn’t think much of it . But she continued to get sicker and sicker and never seemed to get better like the rest of us who took our antibiotics. She kept saying I wouldn’t miss my daddy’s funeral for the world , I don’t care how sick I am. Feb 9th was the funeral at 11am, at 4am that morning I received a call that my mom was extremely sick , vomiting, falling down, unable to walk, and super confused. One thing she wasn’t confused about was not wanting to be stuck in a tiny town in Kansas if they admitted her into the hospital. She has a very close relationship with her family, heart and liver doctors in Colorado. So my dad put her in the car and drove her back home and got her straight to the hospital by ambulance. She missed her daddy’s funeral which was absolutely devastating to say the least. They immediately put her in ICU, her blood pressure was dangerously low and this is when we found out she also now had endocarditis. As everyone knows she had open heart surgery and her aortic valve replaced with a double bypass because of complications during surgery a few years back … so anything with her heart is scary hearing . The infection is on her mitral valve, she became septic and things were spiraling quickly. Part of the infection broke lose and went to her brain and caused a couple strokes . At the hospital in Pueblo they told us they were taking her to Colorado Springs and considering another open heart surgery to just replace that infected valve , but there was a possibility she wouldn’t make it through surgery. After days in the springs hospital they decided surgery was off the table ; they said the risk of her dying were greater than her survival rate. This was because she was in liver failure. She’s always had liver issues, a fatty liver that turned to non alcoholic cerossis … never drank a day in her life , which makes the situation even more heartbreaking. The hospital sent her home for a few days with a pic line to continue antibiotics. We were hopeful, til her oxygen started dropping at home into the 70s, she wasn’t able to eat or move much… so back to the hospital in Pueblo we went . We are now currently in liver failure , kidney failure, her heart has 2 spots of vegetation (infection) and 2 valves that are not working hardly at all. They are regurgitating and spitting blood back up the wrong way. The heart can’t be fixed because of the liver ; the liver can’t be fixed because of the heart ; the kidneys failed because they didn’t receive any blood . We have tried everything we possibly can, and today we found out we are out of options. We were told that hospice care would be the best option at this point so she can be comfortable, but she is at the end of her life . My mom had a little sore on the top of her head that was an open wound, she had a dermatology appointment that she wasnt able to make from being in the hospital… come to find out they are thinking while we were in the hospital with my grandpa, my mom touched him (his skin was weeping from fluid overload) and probably got the bacteria under her nail, touched or itched the wound on her head and straight to the bloodstream the infection went attacking her heart : the exact same things she watched her daddy go through less than a month ago are identically happening to her . How can such a young beautiful kind loving human being be cut so short from life . My mom loves her grandkids more than life itself, and to think of her not being here to watch them grow is crushing . My brother Jayson and I are both off of work without pay, he has made multiple trips back and forth to Colorado, I made them back and forth from Kansas and Nebraska when my grandpa was sick last month… and now we both refuse to leave my momma but everything is falling apart on the back end : we haven’t worked but off and on for a total of 7 days the last 29 days , we don’t want to and and mentally can’t worry about money right now, but both of our lives depend on 2 income households ; we need to be by our mommas side even if it means things go un paid. I never thought I would be saying my momma is leaving me ; never thought I would be asking for help financially, never thought we would lose my grandpa and mom within a month of one another… we are in a nightmare we can’t wake up from. Jayson and I have agreed to split all donations made so we are both able to continue to be off of work until she passes so we are able to continue to be by her side every step of the way. We are out of options with everything around us at the moment. Everyone in the world is struggling right now financially and we understand that, so please pray for us and that alone is worth more than money could ever buy.