Cancer has ruined my life Please help

Hi my name is Darrell Pinkston and my family is suffering because of my cancer. I have three types of cancers thyroid cancer, colon cancer, and myofablastic tumors and its has destroyed my life. My wife has to work three jobs to support me and our two children, and it's still of enough. she has sacrificed so much she is overwhelmed, stressed, and exhausted but she doesn't complain. I have had 9 surgeries in 3 years and it has destroyed our finances and we are scared. We are drowning in debt Most weeks its becomes a decision between feeding the kids and purchasing my medicine. I keep getting denied social security and I dont know why it's been over 2 years. In those 2 years we have accumulated over a hundred thousand dollars in debt. It all started the end of 2019 with me having neck pain which was diagnosed in april as thyroid cancer then in June I was vomiting Stool for a week and almost died due to colon cancer the mass blocked my intestines so nothing was coming out when I tried to use the restroom. so it turned to brown Stool and I had vomit it out my colon and large intestines where removed i had an ostamy for a year and the ostamy supplies are extremely expensive 50 for one bag in most cases and I was going though 3 a day most weeks 2 months after they reversed it a myofablastic tumor growing my small intestine caused 90% of my small intestine to be removed, so with all of that being removed its left me going to the bathroom 15 times a day now I have a mall pouch in my stomach for enough food to survive. I have a failing kidney and muscle spasms. Due to not being able to hold fluid. I have scaring in my lung which causes me not to able to breath, I use the bathroom on my self because I cant hold, I cant sleep at know due to accidents on myself

Or turning over on my back and having a drowning sensation because of my damage lungs I have asthma and fibrosis and

bronchitis . I itch and burn all day most days. muscles spasms keep me limited due to my hands freezing and dropping things all day then when I dend over I will use the bathroom on my self. I have a eye disease called Corona keratoconus and only have about 15% vision left in my left eye. I have kidney stones and gall stones. I pass a kidney stone and least twice a month.

Please help my family we are in a real bad place I dont want my wife and kids to keep suffering because of me its days where I lay in bed and cry and ask God why he hates me. He made me feel like he gave up on me. Also I cry because it felt like he wasn't listing to my prayers. Things keep getting worse we had a pipe burst flood under our house so we ended up with a 6,000 water bill, then the neighbors magnolia tree fell across our house and damaged our truck we couldnt afford insurance that month because I need medication so duing the lapse in coverage we where not covered I cant think anymore I worry about my family's future my goal was to buy my family a safer home because we have no heat and gas leaks from old pipes and bad wiring we have had 3 plug fires that randomly start due to old wiring and bad connections lucky we where home each time. someone please find it in your heart help us. Or share my story.

My story video

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