For My Son

Hi my name Lorraine, I am a single mother with 4 grown children. My 3rd child passed away in his sleep on July 14, 2022. My son, who's name was Richard, who was 34, a father of 2 children, a 8 year old son & a daughter age 4. It feels as thought someone litterally ripped my heart ❤ out of me. Theres a big void of emptiness inside me, I can't explain. My son also was an alcoholic, who I tried to help, & care for. I begged him to please just stop. Please slow down Richard, your killing yourself. He lost the mother to his kids, he lost his kids, their home, his job, his car, his friends, his health, because he loved ❤ the alcohol more than everyone & everything. He left Beaverton, Oregon & arrived here in Sacramento on my birthday April 18, 2020. I was in shock when I saw him, how much weight he had lost. But oh my heart ❤ was excited & I rejoiced to have my baby home. Oh how I have missed him. Richard was a beautiful soul, with a big heart ❤ & beautiful smile. I am on permanent disability & ashammed to ask for money. I need help, to give my son a proper funeral service. To say goodbye to my son & to have his body cremated & to buy a Urn for his ashes. As I said I am single mother, no husband. This is extremely financially hard on me & my heart is so broken. How will I ever live without my baby? I still am in disbelief, thinkibg he is away visiting his dad & brother in Antioch, California. I am having a hard time acknowledging my son is really gone. As I said, I feel a big void, an emptiness inside of my heart ❤, like I am missing a part of me. I don't feel whole anymore. Richard was my 3rd child & my 2nd son, he was also the smallest in weight & size, weighing 6 pounds 2 ounces. He was very special to me, we shared a special bond, only a mother & son could have. I loved ♥ my son with all of my heart ❤ & now my baby is gone & I don't feel complete anymore, it hits me hard, comes in waves & slams me with full force, my baby is really gone. Now its my job & my love ❤ for my son, that I have to say goodbye, to never hear his voice ever again. Never to see his beautiful smile, or how he made me laugh. Never ever being able to hug my baby one more time, or a kiss on his cheek & tell him I love ❤ him. My baby is really gone, I have to say farewell & goodbye to my boy. So I am asking & praying for some financial help to give my son a proper funeral to say goodbye to my son, Richard.