My name is Jackie.  I am a widow with 5 children.  My husband passed away 8 years ago at the age of 42.  I have been trying so hard to live comfortably for the past 8 years but as of now I am drowning in bills and I need to do work in this house.   Between the regular bills (gas, electric, telephone ..etc) I have all my credit card bills plus I am trying to pay off a van.  I purchased a van that I thought would be able to be made wheelchair accessible for my 11 year old son with cerebral palsy.  Unfortunately this particular van could not be done.  I really would like to pay off some of these debts! I need to rip up carpets so I can move my son around.  I can not push some of his needed equipment on the carpet.  My ceiling is falling down in another room and needs to be repaired.  I am unable to work because of the fact my son's medical conditions are unpredictable.  He is wheelchair bound, he has seizures, feeds only from a pump, and he is non verbal.  I wake up every day to the constant calls and honestly I can not take it anymore.  I have tried, and I just seem to be getting deeper and deeper into a bad state.  I would be truly grateful for any support -  I even tried to send a letter to Ellen but why would I think she would help me - I feel no one is on my side - Thank you all - I can go on and on how helpful this would be to us but I am crying and saddened just writting this and asking - Thanks!