Hi there!

My name is Jasmine and I am, as of this writing, a 46 year old trans woman. After a long and arduous journey of self discovery I began my medical transition a few years ago in October of 2020. Around the time of my beginning this process my spouse was diagnosed with a brain tumor. With health issues and pandemic related unemployment, we used up our savings paying our bills and giving our child as uninterrupted a life as possible while we navigated these difficulties. Now it is time for me to take my transition to the next level. To do that, I am asking for your help.

Some history-

When I was about 4 years old I remember asking my mom after a bath, "When will my penis turn in to a vagina like you have?" She replied that I was a boy and that having a penis meant that I was a boy and that I would always have that. I tucked that information away with childlike disappointment and went on about my little life.

Around 12 years old when puberty was just starting to rear it's head, the changes I could feel in my body felt…wrong. I began to sense a deep incongruence with what I felt in my heart and what was happening to my body. Unfortunately, right about this same time a new man entered my mother's life and would become a part of our little family for better or worse. For me it was a lot of worse. As I was internally grappling with feelings that I would only much later know to be gender dysphoria, this man went out of his way to be transphobic and cruel to any expression of gender variance we would see on TV or movies (and in the early 90s there was a lot of bad representation) or daily life.

I shoved these feelings of gender dysphoria down as deeply as I could and in response to a very traumatic event when I was 17, closed them up so tightly that I would never see them again. I built a vault inside myself to store those thoughts. Over the years I built a room around the vault, and then a house around the room, and finally a fortress around the house to keep any of those dangerous thoughts from escaping.

Fast forward to 2015, I am quickly approaching 40 years old and married with a kid. One day I am sitting in my bedroom, the only room with air conditioning, working on some project or other when something triggered a line of thinking that, in an instant, turned that fortress and house and room and vault into dust. There I was, face to face with thoughts about myself I had tried for so long to run away from.

It took a few more years, and a couple of false starts, but in 2020 I began my medical transition journey for good with a regimen of hormones. And they worked wonders! I am happier now than I have ever been in my life, despite living through some of the most difficult years of my life since transition began.

Now that my wife's health crisis is over, it is time for me to finally answer that question I asked my mother all those years ago. When will my penis turn in to a vagina? And also a second newer question. Will you help me achieve this?

What the money will be used for-

Most of the medical costs will be covered by my insurance, for which I am truly grateful.

$1,000 Pre-op preparation for vaginoplasty, travel to appointments, &c.

$5,000 will cover a breast augmentation surgery.

"But Jasmine, why are the boobs more expensive!"

First off, breasts are wonderful things and deserve all the love and attention they can get. But more to the point, I want to do the fat transfer method rather than implants. This will result in smaller but more natural looking and feeling breasts using exclusively my own body tissue. This method is typically not covered by insurance.

$1,000 Aftercare accessories, post-op appointment costs, &c.

$500 Misc.

I plan to keep receipts & track expenses. Any amount not used in my transition journey will be donated to another trans GoFundMe to help someone else out.