Broken brain needs help please

First I want to say thank you to everyone who has helped me out over the past 2 months. I hate to do this, but I'm still out of work, 2 more tests the week of the 25th, one pending confirmation of data required, along with an impending surgery date.

On January 7th I passed out while at my second day of work at my new job, I hit my head on the floor, on site they thought I had a seizure. That has been found to not be the case. My amazing trauma nurse took my scans to her husband, a neurosurgeon, who discovered a chiari malformation in my head. I suffered a "chiari crisis" which caused me to pass out. Under normal circumstances I would have just went home, slept it off and went back to work, however this ended me up in the hospital (scared to death by a Dr at my primary care - said my heart stopped and informed me I was out of work until further notice while testing was being done.) My mom stepped in and helped with insurance so now I'm back on track with tests etc, but am still not allowed to return to work until I follow up regarding the tests I have to have. Since I've hit my head, I have numbness, tingling, and at times (depending on what im doing) lose control of my hands. The concern is the fluid build up in my head has increased and they just want to make sure that I'm ok before I'm let back out into the world (no more quality time for my forehead and the floor). Again, I am so grateful to all those that have helped out. You all know me, asking for help is not something I do, but I am at a loss right now. I'm scared of what I've already been told, I'm scared of what they might find, I'm just scared. I'm sorry for the 15 minute ramble and if you made it to the end, thank you. I appreciate all of you guys.