Brian Young (aka soadman)

Hi, my name is Jamie most of you will know me from soadsquad iv asked permission from the family and there happy for us to set this up. but please dont feel pressured to donate. Brian passed away at the early hours of 9/5/2024, he was a massive part of the streaming commuinty and i know for all of us and myself we will miss him like mad. im not great at words so i will post what nicola asked me to read out for anyone that missed it.

Hey everyone, so this is all new to me and I have no idea what to do so Jamie is helping me out. I've been reading through some of your messages on here and it's really heart warming.

I just want to say a massive thank you to everyone who has been there for Brian over the last couple of years. It really means a lot and I know how much he will be missed in your community.

We had the pleasure of meeting a few of you this year and although it was strange to meet his 'groupies' ( your words, not mine haha) I can see how much you meant to each other.

I just want to start by explaining what kind of happened to the best of my knowledge. Brian messaged me at 630 asking to call him,I did, and he said he had a scary moment when he woke up in a pool of sweat and couldn't move his arms. I said ill come right now and take you to a&e, he said I've made it to the toilet and he feels so much better and he will phone the Dr's. I said phone me at work and I'll come straight away, and we messaged a little but he never did read my last message at 7:03. I came out work, I don't get my phone at work and noticed he hadn't been active for 5 hours, which we all know is strange is strange for this time of day, I phoned and it went to voicemail, I couldn't settle so I went to his flat. I screamed, shouted and booted his door but there was no answer. I eventually had to call the police to come and break the door in. They found him. They told me he looked peaceful. I'm struggling with the fact that I didn't make him go that morning and I probably always will.

I know Brian was a huge part of your lives and I want you to know that it seems Brian did hide a lot from everyone. Even his closest friends and family and it seems he had been struggling for a seriously long time. Did u know? Did we know? We probably did but his smiley demeanour and checking on everyone else distracted us from his troubles and we never knew how really bad it got.

We do not know the cause of death but it was nothing suspicious but we do know it was medically related. A post mortem will be carried out and hopefully we find the cause.

You all seem very close and invested in each other and all I ask is if any of you are portraying someone you are not and you need help, can you please reach out to someone. We are all here to help, no matter how bad you think it is, it isn't. Everything can be sorted and you can get help you need. Although we do not know his cause of death, his mental health was obviously not in the right place and this did not contribute to him leading a healthy lifestyle and getting back on track and this, I think, caused him his life. Our family are saddened for you as much as we are saddened for us. We will post the funeral details as soon as its in place and we will try to have an online link for those who cannot make it.

If you would wish to contribute songs that remind you of him or you knew he loved please do and we will put something together for the funeral.

We wish you all the best, please reach out if you need to, I'll be there for each and everyone of you if you need me to be and I honestly truly truly mean that. RIP soadman. My wee brother xx

RIP SOAD WE LOVE YOU!!