The love on my life Benjamin Baker passed away unexpectedly on 2/26/2020. He left behind so much for all us to remember him by, and we can only hope that holds us up strong during this terribly lonely time. My heart simultaneously swells and shatters every morning I wake alone in our apartment without him.  

To add to the terribleness of losing my soulmate, and just trying to survive emotionally, the world demands to go on. This is a difficult thing to do, but I am asking for help financially. 

I have been able to keep my head up until now, but come middle of this month, it’s going to be hard to pay my bills, and come June 1st rent I will not have even half rent. 

Ben made approximately 2/3rds of the income and paid for my healthcare (now $700/ month for Cobra, but I need to keep my doctors)
I was not well enough to work for a month after his death and because of a payroll issue I was accidentally over paid while I was out on leave, denying disability benefits at the moment and work is requiring me to pay them back at $150/ paycheck. Now that I am back at work they have cut my hours by over a 1/4th, because COVID-19 restrictions, and I do not qualify for unemployment. I also don’t have any of my second income from pet sitting coming in. My paychecks have been under $900 for 2 weeks worth of work. . 

I applied for Calfresh and only received $80 for a year, but in the meantime I have cancelled our streaming systems and started to put bills onto our credit cards. I will use up the last of my savings by the middle of the month. 

I know there is ‘rent deferment’ in San Francisco right now, but I am not on our lease and there is no law allowing me to stay here after his death. I would rather not risk coming home to an empty, or locked apartment right now. My anxiety is too high right now to risk The possibility.


Thank you for all that have helped me so far, in all the ways. I appreciate everyone and everything. I know lots of us are struggling right now, so please only help if you can. I will never forget the generosity of everyone during this time, and will do what I can to pay it forward once I can.