I have struggled to manage all this on my own for so long, this wasn't an easy decision and it's been one my doctor and I tried to avoid the past couple years but I can no longer ignore the fact I have not been getting better with my health. It has been a slow steady decline for the past couple years but the last 6 months have been the absolute worst.

Those of you know me from my art streams, or when I used to body paint, building cosplay, gaming, cooking, etc. Those of you that have known me for years know I take on a lot and had put on massive shows, events, projects. I really hope you all remember me life loving, positive, and energetic.

My specialist I've been seeing the past few years diagnosed me with Mastocytosis aka Mastcell disease few years ago after I had a tremendously huge allergic reaction and inflammation that couldn't be calmed and healed. I was on and off heavy steroids in attempt to keep it at bay, constant infections that caused major complications. Usually when I'd had flares like this in the past there was things we could do to mend it and I would get back to my original healthy self. I haven't fully recovered since my breast augmentation surgery. I have had long bouts of being stable but never fully healed and 100% myself. To keep infections at bay and the rash, inflammation somewhat on top of it takes a tremendous amount of time and energy. The constant maintenance I do everyday to keep my skin clean, moisturized and on top starting infections has been overwhelming on its own. And the past few months it has become impossible and exhausting. I'm constantly in pain both externally with my skin and internally with my joints, back. When the flares get really bad it cause massive brain fog and inflammation to my other organs causing all kinds of unpleasant symptoms. My diet is limited severely from the progression of allergies that have arose. I can no longer use soap, and fragrances around me, many cleaning products, the list really goes on. It's a nightmare.

My doctor had brought up my implants multiple times being a probable cause, although she understood the massive complex decision and issues removal of them would cause as well and so we did everything we could to avoid having to step down that road. It was an investment for what I do for work, and it had paid for itself 10X over, but now I am in a position where my health is making me bedridden and useless more times than well. My mental health has taken a huge plummet even though I have done my best to adjust my mindset and my life style. But it is effecting and enveloping every part of my life. I feel like a massive burden, I cannot keep up with anything. Things have been piling up on the promise of hope. And I am just at my limit, I have to get these removed. I have no other options at this point. I'm feeling completely defeated. It has taken up to this point for me to finally reach out for help and share this fully. I just want my life back, I want to give back to my community again which I feel I haven't been able to since all this started years ago. I want to start over. We will be putting up all my art and other works, even Sindragosa(cosplay) up on my shop for sale to try to raise everything I need for this surgery. It's a two week recovery and I was planning to go down to Nevada to my original surgeon as it is cheaper than here in Washington but also I know he is good and I'll feel safer in their hands. It is a massive surgery I will need to be put out. If anyone has any questions, or you are wanting something else in exchange for helping contribute to this fundraiser you can reach out to me directly.

I'm so sorry to be reaching out for this kind of help, I really have done everything I could to avoid stepping down this road, though I really wish I had done it much sooner. Hope is a fickle bitch. I appreciate all of you so much for sticking by me during all the ups and downs. All the adjustments of my channel and content. Nothing really got back to normal, because I never fully got back to normal, it has taken over my mental health and I just wanted to bring laughs and art to you guys. It's hard to admit defeat, this really has knocked me on my ass.

I'll drop some links, please take some time to look over and if you please could pass along the message to anyone that maybe interested in helping or looking for some art. I'm trying to paint every moment I can health permitting for streams. Also any resources you have or people you know that you think would be helpful please reach out to me directly via discord <3

Thank you so much for taking the time to read all this

Love you fam,

Laura (Nagisake)

Links:

Original artwork and website: https://www.nagisake.com/original-art

Discord: https://discord.gg/wUsYh78c

Twitch: https://www.twitch.tv/nagisake

Twitter: https://twitter.com/nagisakee

Linktree: https://linktr.ee/nagisake

Info on my disease and complications Implants can cause:

https://www.aaaai.org/conditions-treatments/related-conditions/systemic-mastocytosis

https://www.breastcancer.org/treatment/surgery/breast-reconstruction/types/breast-implant-removal