I'm a hard-working single Senior recently diagnosed with breast cancer - infiltraing ductal carcinoma.  On top of that in June I dislocated a toe while visiting my daughter and got surgery on my return 2 weeks later. This doctor didn't listen that my body rejects and can't have a lot of various medicines or metals. He used a six inch pin instead of fusing it as he said he was going to do prior to the surgery.  Now I am in pain all the time and can't walk correctly or much at all. (And yes when strength returns I'll be looking for an attorney.)

In July the cancer diagnosis came in.  I had a lot of friends and my General Practitioner there for me, but it's overwhelming. Surgery was scheduled for a partial masectomy on October 28. It just didn't feel right, especially since the same hospital already messed up badly.  I had prayed that Spirit would make the decision about what I should do because my strength is physically sapped right now. That surgery was cancelled by the doctor due to an equipment failure.

In the meantime, I've decided to proceed with the foot surgery first because I can remain self sufficient without a breast, but not without my foot.  That's December 9.  A new specialist will perform 4 procedures. Insurance won't cover it all. I'm looking for a used "knee scooter" so I can get around because with the breast cancer, crutches have already proven a very painful way to get around, not to mention tiring.

I live alone with my great boxer dog who no longer gets walked. I still work because I sit for my job in a service business counseling people, which I've done for most of my life.  I've been working since in my teens, and will continue to do so as much as I possibly can when I can still maintain my giving clients the great service they deserve. I know some days I'm just not going to be able to... I have a serious illness going on. This is extremely stressing to me...how will I pay my bills? What if I am so ill I can't do anything at all?

I took it as an answer to my continuous outpouring of prayers that I was not to have the breast surgery. In that surgery they would do a partial mascectomy AND take all my lymph nodes, even though nothing is wrong with them "in case" the cancer returns after surgery. This can leave me with an arm that hurts the rest of my life, swelling, or other arm damage.  I have severe reactions to many drugs and I am totally convinced that chemo would kill me. I read and research my alternatives every day.

I've seen several doctors for second opinions, inc luding Marijuana doctors for cannabis oil. This doctor is a qualified M.D.  He prescribed [phone redacted] mgs of cannabis oil a day for 60 to 90 days.  I intend to start that treatment a few days after the foot surgery so that nothing interferes prior to the foot surgery.  If that treatment doesn't work in the 60 days, I will be going to the City of Hope for surgery.

Since my cancer is the kind that spreads, the sooner I begin treatment, the better. I need the money to pay my utilities, rent and bills during my period of recuperation and for the expenses of the treatments.   My foot surgery is Dec. 9 and only requires a one day hospitalization and Medicare does not pay the full costs for the hospital, anesthesiologist, surgeon, etc.  I'll need to find some helpers  to come the first week or so to ensure I get fed, help if infection, etc.  I live in a 2-story townhouse so will put a bed in my dining room until the doctor says it's ok to do steps again. Any family  I have live very far away and I have only a handful of friends in the area I live in so I need to be as self-sufficient as I am able to. (I moved here 4 years ago.)

I have never been the kind of person who reaches out for help, but I am distraught over my current situation and fear I'll be homeless or can't pay these medical bills.  I am a very spiritual person who has spent my life in a job that counsels and helps other people.  I need other loving, caring people to help me. In turn, after I am healed, I will return to my giving to others.  I'm doing all I can to make this a speedy recovery.

Please help me today.  I never forget a favor and will always be greatful to you. If there is something you need from me, please let me know.

Thanking you in advance,
Lindy