Breaking The Cycle: Mental Health Support For Daniel Yedinak

Hello friends, family, those of you who may not know me that well but like to watch my journey through this life from social media. Its difficult to know how to say this, embarrassing, even painful but i truly don't know what else to do or where else to go.

Almost three years ago now i was at a camping festival with a group of friends and on my way over to my very best friends campsite to help him set up his space and meet his friends from Canada that he was so excited to introduce me to. that is where i first met her. Kailyn. From that day on we didn't stop talking, it was an instant connection. It felt like we were cut from the same star, stuck on the same radio frequency, everything that we had ever gone through just lead to that moment and made total sense. Every day of that festival i made my way a mile from my camp to theirs just to spend the only time i thought id have close to her. Weeks later we were still texting, still only friends, and i had asked her and her best friend if they wanted to come to see where i lived and be there for my birthday to celebrate with a few of my friends. She saw how i lived clean, put together, saw that i could cook a damn good meal, and host a good time. We kept going back and fourth to visit each others homes from then on pretty much weekly, hers in Canada and mine in Washington.

Five months later she asked me to be her boyfriend and almost a year after that i asked her to marry me and went from long distance to working together to make me a true Canadian. Over a year ago i gave up my life back in Washington to be with the most awe inspiring and incredible woman i have or will ever meet again in my life, thinking that i could just move to Canada and get my residency like that and it would be easy. We would get married, get through the immigration process together, and start our lives to conquer the world together. It was not that easy, I had left behind a stable high paying job, sold everything i had owned to get a ring and have some money to help out with the bills. That money didn't last long at all. I couldn't get a job due to not having a residency yet but the process was over a year of waiting.

I started down a rabbit hole of depression and drinking to deal with the feeling of uselessness and not having any of my old friends close or motivation to do my hobbies while Kailyn tried to do everything she could to help me out of it, but i kept going and started drinking more, started taking pills thinking it would help with my adhd, depression, and bi-polar disorder but i just felt like they weren't doing anything so i took more just making things worse. That and a few suicide attempts along the way whenever the emotions became so strong that i couldn't keep them stuffed away.

I went from the happiest person i have ever felt in my whole life to an energy sucking and depressed drunk that i would never have wanted to be or show to the love of my life. Now that story that we had imagined in the beginning is all washed away because i didn't take the help from anyone that was offering it that i needed sooner. I've been unable to find a job here that i could use the money to help fund this or i would not be asking for any of it. Now I'm here asking for any help i can get to be that happy person i was before and have my mental disorder under control. I'm here as a last resort asking for help to raise $6,000 so that i can get into a 12 step rehabilitation center in Vancouver called "Together We Can" so i am able to start this life again in Canada back on my feet with everything under control.

The damage i have done is irreversible but i cant keep going like this. I don't expect anything to come from this but if you do choose to help even after reading through, please know i'm more embarrassed and ashamed of myself for sharing all of this and asking now when i should have done something sooner, but i appreciate anything that comes from this. After the treatment i plan on immediately going back into the construction field where i know i can excel, and continue with counseling, going to the gym, and finding those lifelong hobbies and friends that the younger version of me was so proud of before.