Braxton Anthony Josef Baines

As many of you know my beautiful baby boy passed away on the 19/4/25 at just 6 weeks old.

The reason as to why this happened is still unclear but I hope one day to have an answer although no answer will ever make me feel any better.

Braxton was such a character to say he was only 6 weeks old he never failed to put a smile on anyones face and he was so strong.

He was born premature, on the 5/3/25 i was 34 weeks and had to have an emergency caesarian I was so scared but the moment I saw him all the fear I felt vanished.

from the very first bottle feed in neonatal he was always trying to lift his head and trying to hold his own bottle. He was such a clever little boy I had never felt love like I have for him no words can describe what it feels like.

After 2 weeks of being in neonatal he had made so much progress and he got discharged, he even got discharged before me and had to come up to my ward!

The first night I had with him in hospital was so scary, it was the first time it was just me and him but I just remember looking at him with so much love and I knew that everything was going to be okay, I also remember pressing my buzzer any time he would do anything and asking the midwife silly questions

A couple days after that i got discharged and I got to spend the next 4 weeks with him at home loving every moment I had with him.

Braxton was nocturnal he slept all day and partied all night, the week before everything changed he had just started to be awake more in the day and i started to plan everything that I could start doing with him.

I'll forever ask why this happened to me, why it happens to anyone. The pain is unimaginable and words can't describe what I feel, all I know is that the day I am reunited with him is the day I will finally feel whole again.

The reason for this gofundme is so I can give Brax the best send off he deserves. I will never be able to buy him a birthday or Christmas present or just anything in general, this is the only thing I can do for him now and he deserves everything I can give to him. And if anyone can help me give this to him then I am more than grateful to you.

I promised I would give him the best life I possible could but now I promise that I will live for him and everything I do will be for him.

I love you so much Braxton I promise you will always be apart of my life and I will always tell everyone what a sweet boy you are and all of our beautiful memories I will never forget. Even though you are not here I am still your Mummy and I will cherish that forever.

I don't know when Braxton’s funeral will be due to him still being in the childrens hospital, he should be released this week in to the care of the funeral home. but the funeral will be some time in May and i will release details as soon as i know.

If you can donate or even share i am more than greatful as you are helping me give Brax the best send off he deserves. Thank you so much❤️❤️