Hello, my name is Blair Calhoun. I am a 25 year-old black trans woman living in San Diego, CA. For those of you who know I’ve been transitioning on/off for about 4 years now, but it’s taken me until very recently to truly feel comfortable with myself.
When I first began my transition I was naive. I started off strong, but societal pressures drained me. Living in a cis, heteronormative world caused me so much anxiety and stress that I became ashamed of myself and genuinely scared for my safety. So much so that I avoided leaving my house for the better part of 2/3 years, except to work.
I have been working part-time since senior year of high school, paying for my own necessities (cell phone, food), but a little after starting my transition I had to work full time. My mom lost her job and unemployment was not enough to cover rent, food and other basic necessities, so I had to step up. Up until that point I was doing my best to save money to use for my transition (laser hair removal, hormones), but suddenly I found myself having to use it for the reasons mentioned above. I don’t regret it because I love my mom and everything she’s done for me, but at the time this put a halt on my transition. It crushed me and sent me into a deep depression, one that I truly haven’t been able to get out of until this year. I was too scared to ask for help because I thought I should be able to take care of everything on my own, and I didn’t want to take anything from others who needed it more.
Fast forward to today and I now realize there is nothing wrong with asking for help when you are down. If this year has taught me anything it is that there is strength in community and organizing. I know we’re all going through a lot right now, but any help would be greatly appreciated. All funds will go towards laser hair removal, hormones and continuing my transition journey. Links to Venmo, Cashapp and PayPal included if that’s easier. Thank you ❤️ Please share.
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