Hello, my name is Bruce Sipple. I have to say I have had a pretty good life and always a hard worker to accomplish any task at hand. Although, the last 4 years have been a real struggle for me. This is so hard for me to do this, cause I have always been the one to help others, and that special feeling you get when helping others. I am in tears just trying to write this. It has always been a problem for me to ask for help.
Well about 4 years ago I started having extreme pain in my knees, to where it got to the point where I couldn't even walk. They referred me to a bne specialist that informed me that my tibia had become deformed and my bones were touching each other. This is what was causing the excrutiating pain. They would have to cut my tibia in half and take a piece of the fibula out to keep it from turning again. To go from normal and actve to all the sudden having this procedure done was very scary. They told me it would be painful and I would be in a wheelchair for a year or two, but the pain I had, I agreed right away thinkig it couldn't be worse then this. So I had the surgeries and the mental anguish alone going from a normal active life to bed ridden was enough to cause me to have a nervous break down. Though, the pain from adjusting the struts to move my bones with 15 plus rods going through your legs felt like someone had 2 pipe wrenches twisting my bones in opposite directions.
After the surgeries and putting on a 100+ lbs., It was still not right. But, I dealt with the pain as best as I could. I did go back to work for 2 years and just masked the pain with medicines. Which I get so frustrated I will just quit taking, then I'm in serious pain. But before all this I never even took an aspirin. Well now I am at the point where my bones are almost touching again, and my knees are totally shot and have to be replaced. I can no longer work at this time, and I am literally completely broke and scared "Is this how my life will be forever?". I have always been a strong willed person but after such a longtime dealing with this, you start to ponder and doubt yourself.
My son just crushed me on 4th of July. We were saying a prayer before lighting fire works, well he was kind of distant and didn't want to really hold everyone's hands a say a prayer. On the way home he looks over and sais "Dad do you believe in God?". I said of course son why would you say that? He said Dad I just don't know anymore, why does God take good people and leave bad people sometimes. I told him that God works in mysterious ways sometimes. He sais well you have always helped people at the drop of a hat with anything they may need financially or in all aspects of life. Then he sais, all these peole owe you money (which is over 108k) and no one will help you. I told him hopefully one day they will repay me, but I was fortunate at that time and I helped them and that's what it is really about. So we further discussed about God, and I told him that sometimes you have to have bad in order from good to come.
I am just lost now and am scared to death that I am going to fail. I have posted pictures of what my legs look like now, you'll see my bones look like the back legs of a cow now. It just baffles me how a medical issue can literally just turn your life upside down, and before you know it everything is gone. I just wish I could be somewhat back to normal to be the best Dad I can be. I hope that after I get through with this hell I have been going through, is to pay it forward and set up a charity to help others that have been through similar situations. Because you truely don't realize the turmoil and strain this puts on ones life unless you have truely lived it.
Any donations would be greatly appeciated and hopefully I can take this experience and learn and help and pay it back ten fold. I will post a video, but everytime I go to I am literally in tears the whole time. Like I said, I have always been the giver and the joy that has brought me. I actually looked at GoFundMe almost a month ago. Now that I am at rock bottom and have gone through all my savings, I am lost and don't know what to do.
Any help I will not be able to thank you enough.
I just want to be the best parent and father I can for these kiddos. They are my life and everything I live for. I really appreciate everyone's generosity and will cherish this forever, and will pass this on ten fold in time. God Bless Everyone, and again thank you so much.
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