Kevin’s burial fund

I’m at a loss for words! I don’t know what to say! When I left for work yesterday morning I never thought that would be the last time I saw my son alive.  He had a truck but it was getting worked on and almost fixed so I had asked him that morning before I left if he needed to use my car for the day! His brother jerry was home but had to be at work and he left at 11:30 and he wasn’t nowhere to be found.  We kept calling and trying to reach him, still no answer! Joseph was already gone! His van was coming up the road when I was leaving! Robert had a shotgun by the back door that he used to shoot rabbits with! Sarah came over and searched the house over, no shotgun to be found. We all looked at the edge of the woods, we didn’t see anything. When we got settled down for a bit Joseph showed me a letter that Kevin had left on the table. It said to comfort each other and that he was sorry he was such a piece of s ... and he was tired of living in this world. Robert just had a gut feeling to go look behind the boat and there he was, bent over a  log. It was so tragic! I had to call 911 and they took forever to get to my house. They didn’t leave till after dark and it all started at like about 6 when I called them the first time. Needless to say, he shot himself and is no longer here with us. Thanks for reading and understanding! I don’t know how we will even pay for a memorial service because no one ever expects To lose their child that is only 26 and was going to start work at Pilgrims on Monday!#suicideawareness