Hi, my name is Nikki and this is my beautiful friend Beth, and she needs your help.

Beth is dying from Stage IV Metastatic Breast Cancer. She was diagnosed terminal right from the beginning, just over 2 years ago.

By the time it was found, the cancer had already spread throughout her body—into numerous lymph nodes, both shoulders, both hips, her jaw, up and down her spine, and has consumed nearly half of her liver.

She had a brief window (7 months) where the cancer was "asleep."

Time to celebrate!

During that time she was able to have a double mastectomy to improve quality of life and 6 weeks of intense radiation, Just to buy more time.

But it came back with a vengeance.

She has more spots in her liver, shoulder, and spine. She is also facing a very rare form of metastasis that has spread to the lining of her abdominal cavity, something her doctors cannot easily test for or biopsy.

As if she wasnt dealing with enough in her cancer journey, Beth has also been diagnosed with Gastroparesis, which means her stomach is paralyzed. It took over a year and a half of pain and vomiting before that was diagnosed.

Anything thicker than water, causes intense pain and nausea, limiting her options for basic nourishment and robbing her of the joys of her favorite foods.

5 months ago, Beth's doctors stopped treatment, hoping her body would have a chance to rebound and grow stronger so they could begin another form of treatment. But the effects of both the cancer and the gastroparesis have left her malnourished and unable to absorb nutrients.

Continuing treatment now would cause more harm to her body and increase toxicity to her liver and kidneys

The focus was then shifted to quality of life vs quantity.

We are now running out of time and looking to help fulfill her most desired wishes.

" I just want to go home." It is a crying plea I hear almost daily, but she no longer has a home to go home to.

In the years since her diagnosis, Beth was building a life she believed in, a home and relationship and a future she thought was real. Those were some of her most vulnerable, painful and defining moments.

That foundation was taken from her in a painful and unexpected way, adding another layer of heartbreak. And now she's questioning all of it. The person and people she built that life with, are no longer in it. And the homes they shared, the only place she ever felt truly at home, are gone.

When she says she wants to go home, she is grieving the place she cannot go back to.

She is being held up by the kindness of a dear friend who has opened their home and has given her some comfort during this unbearable time. We cannot repay that kind of generosity

As Beth's cancer continues to grow and her body becomes weaker, in-home medical care and hospice will be become necessary in the near future.

Beth deserves her own place where she can rest and exhale, with peace and dignity, with her dogs who have never left her side.

Through everything, her dogs have remained her constant. They are her comfort, her grounding, her only family left. In a life where so much has been taken from her, they are the one thing that hasn't left. They are who she wakes up to, who stays besides her on the hardest days and who bring her small amounts of laughter and peace when life feels overwhelming. They are home to her in a world that no longer feels like one- and keeping them with her is necessary.

Before all of this, Beth was the happiest enjoying simple things. Trying out new coffee shops, spending the day thrift shopping, crafting, gardening and playing with her dogs. She loved filling her space with little things that made it feel like her. Even throughout all of this and being close to embarking on her next journey, she continues to be there for her friends. Often times common, putting their needs before her own.

To know Beth is to love her and her laughter.

Her bucket list wishes are few but meaningful.

Bucket list Item #1:

We are hoping to secure a pet-friendly short-term rental, a small quiet house with 1-2 bedrooms and a yard (Houston area), and will need assistance financially with security deposit and rent. SSDI only covers gas and basic necessities. Something that will feel like her own home where she can sit outside with her coffee, watch her dogs play in the yard, water a few plants and feel, even for a moment, that she belongs somewhere. The goal is to give Beth a place that is truly hers in this final chapter.

Bucket list Item #2:

We would like to send Beth on a final road trip to the place she loves most, Utah, somewhere untouched by all of this medical nightmare and heartbreak. Somewhere she can soak in the peace and beauty of the nature she so loves. In order to make that happen, Her car is in need of repairs (new breaks, front windshield and oil change.)

Bucket list Item #3:

After everything her body is putting her through, she wants to add some beauty around her scars and giving her a new sense of identity amiss all of the chaos. She hopes to get the tattoos shes always dreamed of.

Cancer has taken so much from Beth, physically, emotionally, and mentally.

I would like to help her find peace in what time she has left with us.

Your donations would help us secure housing, repair her vehicle so she can go to Utah, and maybe add a little more color to her life with a new tattoo (and perhaps a fancy cup of coffee at her favorite coffee houses!)