Breast augmentation surgery

I've always been so damn self conscious of my small chest (I would say boobs but they're non-existent, literally) so chest is much more fitting..
I'll keep it as short as possible, but I think I'll be scarred from all the bullying I endured as a pre-teen/teen, for being flat chested FOREVER, or until I am able to get BA surgery. (actually, I KNOW I'll be scarred from that forever) annnd will never forget trying to tell the guys about how the surf was "so crap, just flat all day hey" to have them dicking around being like "ha ha ha yeah, flat" "so flat" "hahah flat" FLATFLATFLAT for obvious reasons (I was obviously in a bikini thanks you fucking jerks) annnd for years and years I've had so many damn costumes I want to make for shoots, cons, parties, just, everything and anything and just so I can dress up as a comic book/anime/game character whenever I damn well please cause f-yeah, BUT I've only ever gotten so far as making the bra/top for a poison ivy costume, cause every time I DO see a costume, or think of a particular design/character I'd love to make or pattern I'd like to use, everything is greatly planned in my head, minus one of the most vital characteristics of the character/femme- the lovely (not even shockingly/overly large) boobs. I'd post pics so you can all see what I mean and that I don't have small boobs, they just, kinda aren't even that aha, buuuut the mere thought of showing anyone ever makes me want to cry so much. It's obviously not just not being able to make costumes I want lol, but like...almost every shirt/dress I've ever liked and wanted but couldnt get cause it didn't fit right.. argggh.
Also, haven't actually been to the beach since i was like, 15... other than last year when my partner built me up and made me confident enough to go with him, but I ended up breaking down and crying/running home cause I felt so horrible there for everyone to see.

I know it would sound so dumb to so many people but I'm so goddamn over it and so upset rn especially, cause I cannot and will not be able to afford surgery for such a long time, and I *was* eligible for a loan and would have been able to do it when I was working but lost my job and THAT is a whole different story.

 Soooooooo one of my friends told me to make this page, and here we are!

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