Hi my name is Philomena, I

Ihave co.plexed health needs,

Due to narcolepsy n blood disorder Anemia

Ptsd

Scittophrenia

The amount of times iv dropped to my knees have scuffed on gravel, b4 I had to have a blood transfusion 7 units of blood replacement I was really ill I must of had about 30 falls still got back up.over time the impact was really affecting me n my idependance,

One instance I was walking towards the pavement on my street, I dived head first and hit my mouth on the actual curb my bridge broke , if effects me to the point I hide, I used to have a beautiful smile,

Natural born mystic n healer,

Intuitively very aware

Since the incident I have tripple vision

But with...

Faith Self Discovery from injury confusion trauma i really went within to the God in me

The holy spirit

My nner child

I believe in me

But I no longer have the self Esteem Or confidence to follow my dreams How I im seen to the public, it's not a matter of just that the falls b4 i had the transfusion ave really damaged my knee capps I'm just not good standing of walking anywhere unfortunatly

I miss the functional chic I was, on top of that knocked my bridge out n it's affecting my speech my eating foods, I just can't see me smiling I just need my smile back,

How can I return to the work place with the broken version Iof how i am now,

To scared

Complexity n disability

I can't walk far

Isolated

Lonely, but never alone

Been brainstorming to find the answer to this

I dont care what it takes,

Dreams are slowly coming back I'm creative innovate manifestations

Love exploring arts craft dress making I have a imagination that doesn't quite fit in average size 10

They labeled mewith the diganosis body Dismorphic

I feel like a Alien that day when I was diagnosed

I have so much to give to the world

My energy for life is something I've only just realised

Forcasting the truthfor every tower moment Ptsd tourment spiritually warfare diliberate

One day I was on a first bus, there was no seats I had to stand at that point I could walk short distances, during the journey it was raining n dark, a car hit the bus from the back end the drivier had to do a emergency stop imeadility and it threw me down the bus hitting with extreme force a proper whallop Ito my left side of my head was extremely painful experience .up in the corner of the bus baring in mind I'm 25 stone the impact was the first time I was involved in a car n bus incident, I managed to get up no one cared no ambulances offered.

Did not think I I would end up how I am today, I need Postural support I can't stand for long healing slowly crooked I can no longer stand up straight, when i walk my posture droops forward simple things once i maybe take advantage of the strenght i had not this time hold things in my hand like shopping bags jopeless to go bathroom I need to use my hands n feet to climb Stairs its a painfull task, , for health n saftey the handles are to help and prevent more injury had adaptions handles on the door way shower room banister instead of crawling hands n feet upstairs to the bathroom I have two handles either side, it was extremely emotionally exhausting period healing I one day every proactive to no exercise isolated cause the walk to the shop has no resting benches there used to be five stops I used to challange myself untill the local council removed all rest steel seating benches in the town on foot its a no go areas in the village,

In order to go shopping I have to use the scooter with trolley attached tesco is my only excitement, day out get lost for hours lol

whilst I was healing I heard alot read alot n along the grapevine first buses in the houses of lords has 50.00000 for first buses but i cant get compensation and alot of people told me to claim but I was struggling to complete tasks and money was further from my mind, I contacted solicitors of a advert that was on the tv, I was told when I explained circumstances, this incident has ruined my life im house bound toothless, that if I was not in the workers union .it was publi.c transport I wouldn't be able to claim2 years 345 went by flew infact, painfull event i was told by ai i would have to write to the judge to extend the claim time petiod, i no longer qualified for compensation for injury that day, that changed my whole life im 45 n i feel like imyself anymore, i dont reconise me i stopped the selfies i dont take pictures selfies lost confidentce n self esteem is low fun loving character was looking into advocacy within mental health,I was going to the hub at the time, I try and be happy but I'm so restricted, they told me I would be able to have a wheel chair but in my property is not open plan, beds broke the sofa is to low hurts massively to get up participateing in daily chores everything feels like a assalt cause in my home i believe the crash was malious, no one cares that its made me really lose apart of who i am that day ble to use one the local council have applied for a downsize to grounds floor to a management move it's a lenghtly process, the bus company have changed there name to bee network whole experience didn't draw blood I have a hump in my crown of my spine I've not shunk in size but feel like I cant stand tall n be counted, laughed at more like my bridge broke so many teeth missing, i cant afford to pay to get my teeth done no matter how many times I fall I always get back up I really struggle wiwith my knees I can't take naproxen for inflamation crushed knee capps is truely the most painful thing to experience in life cause i have anemia i cant afford to lose any blood n naproxen makes my tummy bleed so when I have swollen built up fulid retention I have a gel I can use but really nothing takes the pain away that nd my tail bone my body been through it

Moving forward I survived that day how I dont know how that negative experience has impacted so badly

For some reason I really appreciate the day

Self discovery

Holistic approach

Spiritual guidance

Now I am becoming the leader in my life,

Self management n care,

Over the years past I self taught myself in creativity art textiles n design, I believe these are gifts from god, I am alone but I am not so. My sence of faith never let go despite how hard it was n still ihas been great resilience, optimistic outlook on life

Despite hardship I pulled through

I am stronger than I know

Behind every person theres is a story

I believe mine was planned to hurt me that day, much bigger pic to the run up n countless falls

Exploration self mastery discovery the child within purely beautiful in guidance in this spiritual awareness my intution is always bang on I'm a human lie detector/ director of my life sat down, manifest anything if your truthful and honest to yourself help others in need.

Self love is important I nuture myself to the best of my ability.

Future is bright if I am smiling again please.

Thee rrest is just hard graft

The horizon

Under the sun n bake

A bed

A sofa

Restore smile

Explore how to brace the next chapter of weight loss n reduction to make life more manageable

Starting the process now

Prep'd ideas for better standard to reduce the size I am this is my only option