Dear Folks,
About a year ago I had some pretty devastating news.  I was diagnosed with Stage 4 non small cell lung cancer.  I was left feeling numb, depressed,  and hopeless.  To be truthful, it still doesn't seem real.  The treatments and side effects are real but  the idea that I have  "cancer" still doesn't .  I have a deep seated feeling that I will get through this and be well.   I have already outlived the national norm of 6 months for my type of cancer.  I know I've improved  mentally due to the fact that I can now say the word "cancer"  without crying.
I don't know if I can yet call this a blessing, but I have plenty of time to reflect, write and draw.  I do miss feeling normal and I envy people who are active in living their lives.  It has taken me this long to openly share my condition because pride has stood in my way.  I didn't and don't want to be identified with illness.
Desperation has won out though.  I am at the end of my savings and my stress is rising.  On top of my illness is the news that the house I've been renting will be put up for sale in the next three months.  At this moment I do not have the funds to stay or to leave.
Some of you know I've been trying to launch a new collection of Yiddish word jewelry.  It's very slow going though because I never know if I'm going to have a good day or a bad day.  My dream is to heal,  to be productive  and financially independent.
I would appreciate your help.  I can't imagine yet what I am going to do.   If you can contribute that would be awesome.  I need all I can raise in order to move, pay rent and eat.  No amount is too small. If you can't help with money, I'd be so grateful if you would share my plight with your networks.
Sincerely,
Barbara