Update 3/2/25

It's been a really hard week on my dairy farm. My sweet 2 year old Raven passed away. She was going to be a 1st time mama. Unfortunately she did not get to experience the joy of a bouncy baby and she is missed by her mother Bambi. Raven was a beautiful black and white sable with a sweet soul. She would often come up to me and look me in the eyes and put her nose on me. She loved to be pet and kissed. I miss her dearly.

I'm raising funds to cover Ravens cremation so that I can put her remains with the kid that she lost. And to also cover her vet bill. I was not able to bury her because my back was out and moving 160 pounds on my own was not an option. So the vet took her body and cremation was the only option at that time.

Two year old Raven had a stillborn that had to be pulled on Thursday. It was a very hard 2 hours holding her while Dr. Lisa positioned the kid to pull it out.

The next 2 days I was up through the night keeping a heated blanket on her. She was whining in pain and still needing to pass the placenta. After 2 days of electrolyte water and sweet potatoe smoothie I had the vet come out to place a catheter in her neck for IV fluids. After the 2nd round of IV fluids she passed due to a kidney blood clot that moved to the large intestine.

With all the shock of dealing with Thursday I started to think that I had not seen her pee Thursday or Friday. And was thinking the last time I remember her drinking on her own was Wednesday. I gave her fluids Thursday and it was not enough. I was giving her fluids and Sweet potato Smoothies 4x per day on Friday and the 60 ounces of electrolyte water on Friday was not enough she should have had at least 120 ounces each day. I was worried that her bladder was compromised so had the vet come out Saturday she did an ultrasound and could see her bladder was empty. We started IV fluids and gave her 2500 liters around 1130am. Raven started eating on her own I really thought she was going to pull through. The vet pulled blood and ran it at the lab. She told me her kidneys were not doing well and to run another 2500 liters IV at 2. I started the IV. After about 1500 liters Raven started to pant. I knew something was wrong so I stopped the IV and called the vet to come back. When I realized she was dying I gave her a double dose of painkiller/sedative in her IV catheter. I held Raven for an hour while she died it was so hard, I just wanted to run away and not witness her suffering. And I knew it was my fault. I had to stay for this sweet girl so I kissed her and I just held her against me the whole time. Every so often she would lift her head and look me in the eyes, it was so heartbreaking. The vet arrived 5 minutes after she passed. This has been the hardest 9 months raising goats. Ive lost 2 mama goats and 1 kid. I still have 2 mama goats due between today and Wednesday. And I have so much stress over the last couple days I don't know how to get through these next births. I've gone into debt with an illness that hit my herd from may-dec. And now this vet bill is going to be high due to the vet coming out on emergency call 3x.

I'm really confused as to how I got through 12 years of raising goats with no complications and now so much in less than a year. I feel afraid to continue. I don't want to see any more of my girls suffer!! They are so sweet with their family groups. I feel so sad for 7 year old Bambi that has lost this daughter.

I own a small Dairy farm that has been in operation since 2012 with 18 Dairy goats. These girls currently provide food to over 40 families per week. I currently work 7 days a week for 5-12 hours per day. My first loss was in August with my 6 year old Doe Stormi this is our second loss with 2 year old Raven. Stormis loss was a really hard hit to out farm with a loss of over $15,000 for a 2 year period. Losing Raven will be an $11,000 loss. Right now my farm is in debt and I'm hoping to get donations to pay the vet bill.

Any help with this gofundme even $5 is so helpful. Im really embarrassed asking for help again since I had a gofundme a couple months ago with Stormis loss and help with an illness that went through my herd last year from May-Dec. Im so used to doing everything on my own and just pulling through. Any support is so appreciated! Its really hard to say that I need support.