I came out as queer two months ago. But the further I go into this process of owning my queerness, the clearer it becomes that I've been experiencing gender dysphoria for a long time.
Because I'm not a man.
I am nonbinary, but feminine. It is increasing clear that I need to anchor myself primarily in a more feminine way of presenting. To feminize medically.
Medically transitioning involves hormone therapy, which results in a redistribution of fat, the feminization of some features, the loss of muscle, the growth of breasts, and the thinning of body hair.
Some things can't be remedied that way. My balding hair won't grow back. My beard won't fall out. My baritone voice will remain unchanged.
I'm talking to therapists and doctors about this stuff and am likely to start vocal training to sound more feminine and start on hormone therapy next month.
I'm going to do some fundraising for that vocal therapy, for hair removal from my face, and hair transplants for my head.
I hope to start presenting as transfeminine in public by the end of the year.
I intend to raise more than I need so I can donate some to support trans folx with less social privilege. 25% of everything I get will be given to support the transitions of others. I'm still researching the best place to donate those funds.
And anything above-and-beyond my transition needs will be used to further support the trans community.
As someone who has journeyed from ultraconservative to far left, who has over a dozen years of formal Christian education and doing doctoral work, I feel like I have unique things to say as I transition. Things that, I hope, make space and give hope to younger queers battling toxic Christianity (which, honestly, is most of Christianity).
That's why I'm going to transition in a very public way. I will regularly post content on YouTube. Be sure to follow my YouTube channel . And please consider supporting me on Patreon in addition to supporting this gofundme campaign.
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Here's the anticipated breakdown of costs for the coming year. These numbers will likely shift a bit, since the process can be slow and unpredictable. It is nearly impossible to predict how my body will respond to hormones...and that might require other feminization treatments.
- Vocal therapy: $180/month, $2160 for a year
- Hair transplant: estimated cost $7500
- Electrolysis: estimated cost: $5000
Plus the additional amount I want to raise to support others, that sets my goal at: $20k