hello everyone, my name is nicole well, if you know me , you know me as tots, or tator tots. Im sitting here writing this in the hospital, not that i wanted to but i dont know what more i can do. On sunday may 25th i went to ER for some stitches and had a irregularly high fever. Thinking it was from sun exposure, due to the holiday and being at the lake for my little ones 3rd bday i went home.overnight my fever didnt go away, and my right lower abdomen started to swell a bit and hurt more and more. I kept pushing trying to keep my fever down, nothing was working so tuesday night i knew i had to go back. I had to get air lifted to a bigger hospital, with a specialist because i had a very bad kidney infection.they admitted me.i have been here since. Unfortunately Thursday the 29th , my doctor came into to tell me the infection spread to my blood.which means i now have sepsis too. Which is why i keep spike 103/104 fevers everyday since sunday. And the pain is unimaginable.

If you know me you know i have two amazing little boys that i work as a bartender for , most weeks 6 days a week. With this all happening , on top of my fiancee just getting his stolen identity back and still in the process of getting new car, and into a new home, it has been a mess and this is the last thing any of us needed.i have sat here non stop just thinking about how i can get back to work or how soon. I always try to take care of everyone before myself.i just dont know what or who to reach out to. I have been through way more than most at almost 33 years old.im already an almost 10 year stage 4 hodgkins lymphoma survivor too, and many more things.i know i will get through this.

im not asking for help for medical, that is already going to be so much i am going to try and apply for medicaid or whatever the hospital directs patients without insurance.i just need help for when i get out of here , recovering from sepsis isnt the fastest process unfortunately.i will have to take it easy. But with my whole family relying on me, hopefully moving into our home finally (even if i just have to watch) i need to be able to cover my medicines, stuff my kids may need , ect.

My whole life i always have helped and gave to friends, family, people in need , really anybody. i have a huge heart and just like to make sure everyone is okay, even before myself . This has been a scary week, i know i am strong and have been through scarier fights, but its been a long week by myself due to no transportation, just in the hospital alone to battle this. Im in GA and most of my family is up in NJ.

Even if you can not donate but you can share it would still mean the world to me love you all so much - tots