Hi, my name is Angel Alida Camacho. I am a queer, trans, woman of color hoping to raise funds to help me relocate to a safe, affirmative state and city where I am able to live my life to its fullest without the fear and restrictions of being who I am as a minority during these scary times. I have lived my entire life in a predominantly white, privliged, rural, town, experiencing blatant racism, queerphobia, discrimination, harrasment and hate. Conditioned to just survive and receive treatment less then humane from chilhood to adulthood. I've managed to make friends and community in spite of this enviroment, but still steeping in a place where I am not able to be myself. To live. To be human.

On August 30th, 2024 I planned on killing myself. I was no longer able to accept living like an animal, to not live as my authentic self, and to not live without true freedom. Knowing that there was more out there for me during the times I traveled outside my hometown and met people and places waiting to accept me, uplift me, encourage me, and love me. A place I could not access on my own. Somewhere where a woman like me could flourish and live with integrity and respect of a human not an animal. I couldnt survive like a dog anymore, in treatment or compromise. The truth is I did die that day. I made a video, I had a plan, and I said my goodbyes. I lost a part of me that afternoon. The part of me who could shoulder on the weight of a half life when she deserved a full one. And because of that I can never go back.

What has been almost a full year now, I have been holding the ashes of the me who died and the life I lost. I've had to remember why I want to live. What life is for me. My own true essence outside of where I was shifted and forced to be for so long that brought me to this loss. Angel without influence. I now know in this time I want to live without fear, with integrity, with courage, with honesty, with boldness, with passion, with excitement, with authenticity and heart, and loyalty to myself.

My story ended a year ago on August 30th, 2024. I'm opening the next chapter and I hope you can not only help me reach the following pages, but join me on where my story continues to go.

These funds will be used in the following places:

-Basic bills and neccesities as I prepare to leave

-HRT and other vital gender affirming services

-Moving expenses

-Rent and related bills in the new location I am able to secure as I land on my feet

-Repairs for my car that has been out of service for 8 months(making due biking or walking around during this time)

If you'd like to hear more of my story or follow my journey:

https://linktr.ee/angelhasemerged

Thank you for taking the time to read this message. At the time of my planned suicide all I felt I had to give was my story. Now with my intention to live, experiencing my story and sharing it is a reason to be alive. Thank you for affirming that.

-Angel Alida Camacho