It’s always been hard for me to ask for help; I’m very independent and more often than not people are coming to me so you will imagine how difficult it has been for me to reach out.
I’ve been sick my whole life and not known it. In July of 2017 I started showing more physical signs and started seeing doctors about it because it was something that was getting worse and I couldn’t handle it myself. At first I thought it was the residual stress of a one-sided divorce that left me broke and confused but as the pain of a baseball sized undiagnosed brain tumour reared it’s head and it became apparent that I was close to dying, at Christmas time I rushed in for surgery and spent about 6 weeks trying to recover. The damage done was significant, my left eye has been crushed due to the pressure in my head and as a result I can’t read, watch television or play video games for very long without getting a headache because my eyes won’t work together. The left half of my body is clumsy now and my only enjoyable pastime is playing guitar. I’m only a third as technically proficient as I was before the surgery and I guess I am happy that I can still play since I’ve been doing it for about 25 years. I went back to work in February of 2018 and was robbed of some of my audio tools which basically shut down my home business which was primarily editing and restoring audio. Since then I have dropped nearly 70 pounds which is unforeseen and something I am keeping an eye on. It’s pretty terrifying considering how much I eat and try to gain weight that it is still slowly going down.
The good news is that I am still able to work, although I am losing vision in my left eye at an alarming pace and might not be able to fix it - I’ll hopefully find out what my chances are for some vision correction on August 31. If I lose my vision I won’t be able to drive to my current job and will try to find something more local. Honestly the idea of going on a Disability claim sounds like a prison term to me.
I see my collection of doctors and specialists fairly regularly and since I am asking for help, it’s only fair that I am honest and open about it. If you have questions about my illnesses or limitations, feel free to ask and if I can’t answer it I will be sure to get an answer from a medical professional when I go in for my regular visits.
The bad news is that I am going to get sick again. Likely not for a number of years but I don’t want to sit around and hope that there will be a miracle cure for my condition in the future. I would like to follow through with my dream of eventually having a place to set up my audio equipment again and rebuilding my clientele, and doing what I can to live a normal and productive life despite the rough circumstances I’m going through. Unfortunately my divorce, being robbed, and being sick have left me in a bit of a hole and I need help out.