Hi family and friends!

A life update…. Almost a year ago which now seems like a lifetime ago I had a full knee replacement. It was an extremely hard decision to make but I am so happy I did. Since the replacement I’ve been going to the gym for rehab, getting stronger and starting to feel like it was all going to work out and I was going to get my active life back.

I went for to the doctor because my left breast had become sore and felt like I had mastitis. Which of course was strange, since I am not breast feeding. I emailed my doctor she immediately wanted to see me as we had just started me on birth control to manage what we thought was pre-Menopausal symptoms. She does a breast exam and didn’t like what she saw, I was sent immediately to get my first mammogram and ultrasound at age 42.

Before I even left the building, radiologist comes into the room to tell me I had BI-RADS score of 5, meaning 95% chance of cancer. I lost it, hysterically crying. Thank God my mom was in the waiting room, because I definitely needed my mommy in that moment. Next came the waiting game to get biopsy done.

Within one week I had a biopsy (which totally sucked as I almost passed out and then vomited on the tech) within 2 days, I received the diagnosis of Invasive ductal carcinoma (IDC). The tumor is large and growing fast. What the actual F***! Are you serious! As if two back surgeries and a knee replacement wasn’t enough. God why must you test my faith? I am scared, pissed and feel like life has stopped in its tracks. So, what I will do is put my energy to screaming this from all the rooftops in hopes that my friends, in their late 30’s and early 40 get mammograms and take ANY breast change no matter how small, seriously.

I never feared cancer, it was always in my mind, “oh if I live long enough I’ll get cancer, but not at 42.” Please pray for my family. We will need you warriors to support our family. This is going to be a crappy, long road ahead for all of us. Lord, give me the strength the endure what’s ahead.

Update: they have gotten me under control. I even had my first semi full meal in 5 days!!!

2nd day at the er. This is the most difficult thing I’ve had to do. Can’t stop vomiting have been unable to eat since Thursday! Please send continued prayers. I was in the hospital for 4 days trying to calm the vomiting from the chemo.

Round 2 Friday! . My hair is shedding like a dog. Poor things, now I understand the shedding itch. Here’s to being more prepared for what’s to come, more pre-nausea meds, bracelet, love and prayers. It put me down for 12 days last time with a hospital vacation along the way. Goal is to not go back to hospital but also know sooner when to go if I need to so I don’t suffer. This past week I’ve felt great. So there’s is that small goodness.