My dearest friends and family,

I never thought I'd be in this position in life, but I've learned through the years that life does not guarantee anything. As you know from past posts, during the years, I have been in a tough battle with my mental health. I then went silent on speaking about my mental health not to burden anyone with my bs. It's a daily battle to want to wake up. As difficult as it is to put my situation out there for everyone to see, I am at the bottom, looking up. In May, I got very sick, to the point I could barely breathe due to an insane amount of phlegm. It was hard to do anything due to a lot of congestion. I wasn't eating or drinking anything, and it caused a severe loss of sleep. I had new medications prescribed. Unfortunately, I made a near-fatal mistake. I had an accidental OD in a desperate attempt to alleviate this congestion and get some badly needed sleep. I purchased Sudafed nighttime. I took that along with my new meds and current meds. That mixture, plus my condition at the time, caused me to wake up coughing and choking on phlegm.

I was so dizzy from the lack of air. I was choking and throwing up simultaneously, even coming out of my nose. The room was spinning like crazy, and I had no control over anything. I will spare you the other gross details. However, I can tell you I blacked out on my back while choking then this warm and peaceful feeling wrapped itself all over me. After all, that time panicking, trying to breathe, and then what happens is a trip like some cliche movie scene. Yet, it was no movie. I woke up face down on the floor. I have no idea how and am having difficulty understanding it myself.

Those who know me know what I have been through since that nasty fall at Joshua Tree in June 2020. However, surviving that OD night made me realize that things happen for a reason. My good friend in Wisconsin has given me the chance to crash at her place to deal with my mental and physical health. She allows me to deal with my health in an environment where I can heal. I must do this because I feel like a clock is ticking. I think I am getting into the right headspace to enjoy life again. After being recently laid off, I planned to work on my health; however, getting sick and what I experienced changed my plans drastically. My health is important to me, and I am not happy. I've never been thin. However, I no longer want to be this unhealthy fat dude on meds. So I have been given a second chance. I have an opportunity to put in the work.

I look forward to the challenge and work once I move to the Midwest. However, this cannot happen without asking for help. And that is where you come in…If you ever danced to a DJ Huggie set, I would appreciate it if you could donate and help me get back to playing for you again. It is tough for me to ask for help because of this pride issue, and not asking has yielded negative results lately. I want to be free of this dark mental state, and this current situation has opened my eyes more comprehensively than any other time before. Therefore, I am leaving California and moving to Wisconsin. With your help, I can make this move as soon as possible. The goal is to move out of California no later than October 31, 2022.

While I will miss my family and my friends, it is better for me to leave so I can continue my pursuit of happiness. I will miss the Martins who opened their home to a wreck like me. It's time for me to start over. So I can make music. So I can contribute and give back to society. I want to learn to live life again because it feels like I know nothing. Hard to explain. I am humbled by the support some of you have given me. I want to thank Jacob "TheeO" O'filas for helping me write this because I couldn't get past my pride. I have been proven wrong about the kindness of people. I've always believed in paying it forward, but it's a trip when you're on the receiving end.

As A SPECIAL THANK YOU to those that donated, If interested, I will send you an album I put together for this campaign. All unreleased tracks. No matter what you contribute, you will be eligible for a copy of the album should you desire. Please email me here (not allowed to post an email addy here). You will then receive a link to download or a zip file. The album will become available on/or before 09/19/2022. First, the album must be mixed down and then mastered. This album is my best so far, and I feel like this is the perfect thank you gift.

One Love.

Hector, aka Huggie.