Alexander Daniel Bourbon

Alex Bourbon, 16 years old, in a moment of weakness made the ultimate decision to end his life on April 20th, 2017. This was very sudden and unexpected. We tried desperately to seek out help for Alex but with all the different antidepressants and anxiety medications on the market right now it is often hard to pinpoint which one works and dangerous reprecussions of the wrong medications can more often than not make the problem worse instead of fixing it. Threats are not always empty.
Unfortunately we didnt see this coming and we were not financially prepared to handle the expenses of memorial services, funeral services, and burial/ cremation expenses. Were asking you to please find it in your heart to donate any amount of money but if you are not able to we understand but please share this post for us. 

Alex was a wonderful and very respectful kid. He was an avid Saints fan and loved collecting knives and guns. More than ever, Alex loved his mother Sandra his father Richard and his brothers Joshua, Luis, and Beto.  Alex was a servant and had the heart of a hero with dreams of one day becoming a United States Navy Seal. No goal was ever out of reach to Alex, and he had incredible determination to overcome any obstacle in his way of that goal. The purest of hearts and the gentlest of souls belonged to Alex. That soft voice that always agreed to do anything we asked him to do will surely be deeply missed. Alex wasnt a man of many words but when he spoke he had a very special sense of humor. The loss of Alex is being felt throughout the entire district 49 community, with many friends leaving messages about his love of cars and their fond memories they shared with Alex. Alex was so strong and unfortunately battled many demons. He had the strength to endure many years of endless heartache and pain. We will be left in absolute grief and shock over this devastating loss. Alex was loved by many and was a wonderful Grandson, Son, Brother, Uncle, and cousin.

From your brother Gilberto Mendiola (Beto),

Alex, my little brother that I asked the Lord to bless me with. The day before we were going to find out if you were going to be a boy or girl, I prayed to the Lord "in the name of the father, the son, and the holy spirit I ask to bless me with a healthy little brother so I can have the opportunity to show him how to do things, to show him what's right from wrong, to be there when he falls so I can tell him that everything is going to be okay, to show him what a brother's love is. In Jesus's name I will always pray. Amen." I remember the day you came home I couldn't wait to hold you and when I finally got to hold you I put my hand on you chest and you grasped my finger with your little hand and I knew I nevered wanted to let you go. I remember the nights waking up to your cry and picking you up and telling you it's going to be okay. They're so many memories that I can talk about but the last memory that I had with you was like the first time I held you. April 15, 2017, the night of my wedding you came up to me and asked me for a dance and of course I wouldn't have never turn that dance down because you had some smoking moves haha. I felt that moment again when I picked your hand up to start dancing. It was a light grasps and I said "loosen up bro it's only me and you." So I pulled you closer grasped your hand and told you "i'm glad your here and that I love you and I'm going to start being closer to you again....I PROMISE!" you said with that same little laugh and shy little voice "OK." Alex not only did I look at you as a little brother I felt you more as a son. I will never forget our memories we had together. I will miss you so much.

In the words of his brother Luis,
"You always knew what to do in your shy whisper to make me smile.  I am forever proud of you Alex, You came to me with a dream to serve our country and I gave you a plan to fullfill that. I still remember that first run on the beach when you pushed yourself and shouted I WILL BE A SEAL! I laughed because it wasnt the Air Force but it was your dream and I wish I can share that with you again. I love you brother and you will forever Serve with me and in our hearts."

Cousin Astrid says,
" I dont have the words other than Alex's sweet, loving soul will never be forgotten. I will always cherish our memories. I will always admire your drive and determination to hit all the self goals you placed in your life. Ill never forget the times you were thoughtful when others werent or how you were always smiling and making us laugh when we had the chance to be together. I will always love and miss you my sweet baby cousin."

Cousin Yasmin says,
"My sweet, shy, kind baby cousin. I hope you didnt leave this world thinking your presence was worthless or you didnt impact anyones lives, or that you werent loved because you were absolutely loved and respected by many. Alex, our little mayo, may you find the peace you so desperately searched for here on Earth. From the chunky little boy that adored dwew bwees to the young man that had dreams and aspirations to be a United States Navy Seal. Nothing was impossible for you or out of your reach. I only wish you saw the love that surrounded you. We all adored you greatly and desperately wish that it was possible to absorb your pain from you onto ourselves. You have brought us all together and we are all laughing and crying and stronger than ever because of you Alex. Even in your passing we still feel your presence and the abundance of love you had for us. Please forgive us alex for we did not know the power those demons had over you and the continuos fight you battled everyday. Till we meet again."

31 What then shall we say to these things? If God is for us, who can be against us? 32 He who did not spare His own Son, but delivered Him up for us all, how shall He not with Him also freely give us all things? 33 Who shall bring a charge against God’s elect? It is God who justifies. 34 Who is he who condemns? It is Christ who died, and furthermore is also risen, who is even at the right hand of God, who also makes intercession for us. 35 Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? Shall tribulation, or distress, or persecution, or famine, or nakedness, or peril, or sword? 36 As it is written:

“For Your sake we are killed all day long;
We are accounted as sheep for the slaughter.”[a]
37 Yet in all these things we are more than conquerors through Him who loved us. 38 For I am persuaded that neither death nor life, nor angels nor principalities nor powers, nor things present nor things to come, 39 nor height nor depth, nor any other created thing, shall be able to separate us from the love of God which is in Christ Jesus our Lord.
Romans : 8:31-39 NKJV
National Suicide and Prevention Lifeline
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Please reach out if you are having suicidal thoughts. You are not alone, you are worthy of continuing your life. The end of life does not mean the end of love, we are left mourning you and loving you till the end. The family is left behind with many questions unanswered and mothers having to bury their children. Mothers are left to beg for one last chance, one last glimpse, one last kiss, one last i love you, and the chance to save the life. We are left behind with a million what could we have done different? Did we not listen hard enough? Did we ignore signs? Could we have saved him? Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. Never forget that what you are feeling in that moment will pass, things will get better and you will look back at that moment of weakness and be thankful you had the strength to overcome. Mothers always listen when your children say they are sad. Hug your children like its their last day everyday. Try your very best to make them understand their value and the love we have for them.