Alanah’s Transition Fund: Bottom Surgery

January Update: No insurance I can buy individually will cover the surgeon I’ve picked because they are out of state and our medical system is so fractured.

I have a discounted rate from the surgeon: $51,782.00

This is not counting the facility or anesthesia costs (still an unknown but combined, likely up to exceeding $10,000.00)

And that’s on top of housing and travel, and funds to keep me going for the 3 months of recovery. (Another $10,000.00)

I'm absolutely gutted that this means I can’t get it this spring, I have no expectations I can raise that much here but changed my funds needed none the less.

My next step is to find one of a few insurance they take through a new job, and plan for the fall or winter or next spring and have to obtain new letters, etc.

Alternately I could become a California resident and obtain a plan there on the marketplace, or get married to someone with a specifically accepted insurance and use their new plan. Both feel extreme.

In the mean time I will have to get another surgery to deal with a medical issue this would have dealt with, which is something I desperately wanted to avoid. I’m really unsure what to do, honestly.

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Hiya - my name is Alanah!

I will be updating the goal as needed, as the amounts will change as I get additional information. As it currently stands, I honestly do not know the end cost for this surgery. I’ve had my consultation, but with my insurance currently being up in the air, it is entirely unknown.m, and the procedure I’m aiming for is not covered by most policies, sadly.

The funds would be used in a few different ways, hella estimates currently:

- The surgery its-self. ($5,000 -$20,000.00 depending on insurance)

- Housing for the month needed to stay in another city. ($3,000.00)

- Covering costs of recovery/inability to work for that time. ($3,000.00)

A Bit About Me:

Rad as fuck gal who will dance and party until 4:00am with friends, but still meet you for brunch the next morning (shoutout to all my 2:00pm brunch girlies letting me sleep more)

[Mamma Mia Dance Party]

I only recently came out - just a year ago - on International Lesbian Day of 2022 (didn’t know at the moment that was the same day). And this past year has been so amazing for me.

I have blossomed into myself.

[Cute by the Ocean]

I spent so long doing my best to be what those around me wanted me to be. To distort my myself to fit the shadow of their wants. I do not blame anyone in my life, they were there for me when I wasn’t there for myself.

Summer of 2022, I tried to be just me. Not for others, but the person I wanted to be. it was such a gorgeous summer with colorful highs, and tear drenched lows.

I can vividly recall my first moment knowing I experienced gender euphoria. High and tipsy on Mead at a heavy Metal festival one hot July weekend, my friend told me she only felt feminine energy from me. I’ve always been ‘one of the girls’ in my friendship groups, especially from College and on, but the warmth of being seen and acknowledged was amazing.

Sadly, the world also saw it fit to give me the opposite experience the next day. Knowing the pain I felt was gender dysphoria was so difficult.

I still didn’t come out.

[Selfie <3]

Somehow I could hold so many things at once.

- Being one of the girls.

- YouTube ads know I was a queer trans lesbian for years

- Finding joy in a trans friend calling me the least CisHet CisHet person they know… for 6 years…

- Saying I would use any pronoun, just in the hope people wouldn’t use He… but feeling like I was appropriating a Non-binary identity I didn’t match.

- Doing vocal feminization training for my trans lesbian idealized version of myself for D&D in 2021.

- An extrovert trapped in the form I didn’t want others to interact with.

[3 Generations of family]

Once I moved to Seattle in 2023 to live on my own for the first time in my adult life, I felt such relief. I went with my friend to a Miya Folick concert and we had an entire conversation about identity. I effectively said I wasn’t a cis heterosexual person… but I put a pin in that until the next weekend. So many ‘mind blown’ moments all at once, scattering throughout the year that followed. Highest highs and lowest lows all together. Coupled with disability and finally addressing my mental health.

[My tattoo and I chillin’]

I’m so thankful most people in the world haven’t experienced gender dysphoria or genital dysphoria. Having a panic attack every time you engage with your genitals is quite difficult. And that’s primarily why this is my first if not only surgery (though I’d love a more feminine face and some bigger tits… buuut this is the life living in our society as a woman).

So that’s where we are currently - thanks for taking the time to read this or any contribution or sharing you did!

[Seattle <3]