My last wishes

Hi my name is tracy,I would like to start from the beginning where it all started so about 7 years ago I was working never felt any different I went for a smear had a chat with the nurse had to go for the camera at the hospital and other investigations turned out I had stage 3 bowel cancer I felt like I had been hit by a bus so I had chemotherapy,radiotherapy then I had surgery where I had a colostomy bag,had 14 lymph nodes removed,and the tumour removed I got the all clear I can’t even explain how I felt.

so about 3 years ago went for a routine blood tests just to keep a eye on me to find out I had stage 4 bowel cancer I could not believe it the tumour I had was called krukenberg tumour I had chemo but could not have radiotherapy so my tumour had gone to my pelvis,my kidneys it has crushed my left kidney so I only have 1 kidney left,I had to go to Christie’s to talk about surgery I agreed to have the surgery so I underwent a 10 hour surgery I had a full hysterectomy,my ovaries removed,my bladder removed and my bowel removed,I ended up with another colostomy bag cause after the first time I had cancer they had removed it and I have a urostomy bag they had removed my bladder when I woke up I just cried I thought I was in hell,I was in intensive care for 4 days the staff was amazing then I went on the ward the week after having surgery I got sepsis so 2 of my surgeons come on the ward and they basically cut my stomach open again I could not believe what was happening to me anyway the surgery was a success well I say success I did get the all clear but that did not last long about 8 months after I got the biggest blow ever I have stage 4 bowel cancer terminal there is nothing that anyone can do for me now that is really hard to deal with,I have 5 children and 5 beautiful grand daughters I want to do as much as I can while I can,I don’t know how long I have to live,so this is why I am doing this go fund me page,I would like to go on holiday and I would like to do some research and see if there is any help out there in a different country I am going to fight as much as I can I am not ready to die yet

just like to thank everyone for reading this and for all the support I have had from everyone ❤️