I was born in 1989. From roughly 1992 through 2010, I was the subject of multiple instances of verbal, emotional, mental, physical, & sexual abuse from my biological father & mother;

including, but not limited to: being punched, kicked, thrown into walls and other solid objects, beatings, various bodily violations, and all manner of other sordid things a child should never receive from their caregivers.

I was raised in a household with a severely manic-bipolar mother (with many other mental illnesses) & an autistic abandonment-oriented "stereotypical baby boomer" father, both of whom became increasingly violent... with many instances of domestic & other abuse happening to all in the house.

Some bruises never heal.

A prolonged ugly divorce morass between them was but one of the negative factors which contributed to the shattering of the 'normal' childhood & teenage development process for me.

NJ DYFS (an entity similar to CPS) & police were at my childhood home numerous times, & attempts at corrective actions were taken, yet it was always the children that suffered regardless of outcomes. Much damage was done.

The aftershocks of dealing with the ramifications of my parents' choices to inflict such evils upon my sibling & I as minors have continued onward ... with professional clinical diagnoses including major depressive disorder, anxiety, and CPTSD ( chronic/complex post-traumatic stress disorder). I've always struggled socially, financially, spiritually, & in many other ways.

After years of various kinds of therapies, medications, known & private s**c**e attempts, hospitalizations, hiding my pain from my tiny social circles, & a challenging tumultuous semi-ability to be able to attempt to hold onto various minimum wage jobs scattered here & there, I'm at a point where I feel I perhaps have few options left but to humbly ask of the public to show a spirit of charity to me.

I believe-enough in the goodness of others to request to be shown that some can show mercy to the less-fortunate.

My small circle of family *outside* my nuclear family (eg.: cousins, aunts, uncles) have shown varying token-levels of support to me in the past.

Unfortunately, most of the senior members of my extended family have made it clear to me they've chosen to minimize & marginalize my decades-long & ongoing traumas & struggles.

They have chosen to "otherize" & forget me as an outcast - one reason being because they lack authentic empathy for people struggling from depression, anxiety, and PTSD like me. This is partly due to their "old world / immigrant" Southern European cultural background, and/or other possibly dated beliefs.

My father & mother have since refused requests to make any significantly meaningful amends or restitution to me which are commensurate to the suffering & damage they inflicted, even after direct attempts involving professional therapist interventions.

My father currently resides with a mail-order-bride in a gated SoCal community approximately 7 minutes away from swanky beaches, and has directly admitted to me in the past that he was unprepared and unwelcoming of my birth, as I managed to be born after he had already had a vasectomy. He has functionally disowned me as of ~2010.

As you can imagine, (me, being a minor at those earlier times,) I had no say in any of the crimes committed against me. I was also threatened with speaking out against my parents back then. I later learned that "generational trauma" had a role to play in all this as well. I have been forgotten by many.

Additionally, in 2024 I was involved in a car accident. Presently I am privately renting a basic room at a private residence.

I will accommodate requests to share additional details of my life & why I am requesting donations as best as I am personally able to, within reason, & site terms & conditions. I wish to retain a certain level of privacy about certain personal info.

This is fundraising for: ongoing medication, medical care, & basic living necessities ONLY (food, clothing, shelter), as I strive to stave off becoming homeless in an economy that destroys people in situations similar to mine.

Thank you & may you be blessed-in-turn. Any amount helps. Thank you.

Edit: I have been asked about alternative channels, and will say here that I can share my C*sh*pp info upon request.

Edit: My Statement of Online Presence: This GoFundMe page is a private donation request made by myself as a private and legal citizen born in the USA. Since the very initial date of my Gofundme page's creation , and up to present day, I do certify that I do NOT currently have any online social media presence on websites or apps which are primarily in the category of "Social Media". Any websites or apps that I am affiliated with or have a presence on have already been shared directly with family & friends. It is therefore totally to be understood that any entity or individual who attempts to impersonate me by creating some kind of false profile merely claiming to be me or claiming to be linked to this GoFundMe page on any other online platform such as, just for the sake of examples, Facebook or X / Twitter, is NOT the real me. (In fact, I deactivated my prior old Facebook account approximately a decade ago and have never used it since.). Not only is this guidance true of Social Media websites -- this statement also ultimately extends to all other internet presences of mine. All of this is to say that: it is totally safe to assume that anybody claiming to be me or using my identity must be met with the utmost skepticism and scrutiny. If I ever do expand my online public footprint or presence and feel it appropriate to link it here, it will be linked here. In other words - do not let any other claims or statements from any other website, app, or source, hold any merit or credibility if they claim to somehow link or associate themselves in any manner to my Gofundme page in any way, shape or form, as the authority of myself to represent myself and advocate directly stems from myself alone -- through my representation directly on this GoFundMe page ONLY.

Edit: (The following section has been copied & pasted from the update I had previously shared in December of 2024): Over the past decade timeframe, I have spoken with at least two individuals whom have immensely high credibility in their knowledge of the highly difficult topic I am about share with you below.

Accusing other people of attempted murder or manslaughter or infanticide is an action of the among the highest seriousness one person could ever communicate to another person. I understand this very well.

Nevertheless, I am stating here for the record, and for any potential future legal review, that the information I am about share is NOT me making an accusation of this nature.

I am ONLY relating what I have been told by people that are or were very close to me -- people who I have good reasons to believe the veracity of what they reported to me.

The information I am about to present to you is literally outside the bounds of my MEMORY because this event happened to me when I was approximately 1-4 years of age. So I personally have no direct recall of the event whatsoever. I have no way of personally knowing if this happened in ... quite the way it was reported to have happened to me.

As you all are most likely very well aware, major blood loss (or, more specifically, oxygen loss to the human brain in excess of 6 minutes) is an extremely serious medical emergency.

This is what I was told by others: When I was approximately 2 years old, I have been informed that one of the people that were looking after me in my childhood home had "allowed me to get into a situation where I moved near a delicate ceramic-or-porcelain decorative flower vase, in which a shard of that fallen vase, having 'been knocked over', dangerously pierced my outer left wrist, and either may or may not have pierced serious veins and/or arteries in that wrist region".

Unfortunately, further discussion of this incident in recent years had lead me to believe that it is entirely possible (note that I say possible, not conclusive) that the series of events unfolded in such a way that "the sharp shard of the " falling vase " accidentally piercing my body" ... MAY have not been an accident after all.

It may have been someone that used to be very close to me piercing my infant/toddler body at the time with intent to exsanguinate. There was no way to prove it at the time with the evidence that had been gathered from the scene.

As a result, after MUCH panic and MUCH blood loss to my infant/toddler body from one of my nearby caretakers, eventually I was rushed to the emergency room of the nearest hospital in my town to address my near-fatal injury.

To this very day, I still have not been informed specifically of how long I was bleeding out or how specifically intensely I was bleeding out from any of the individuals who were involved with this.

These individuals are my father, my mother, and anyone involved in the transport of my infant/toddler self to the local hospital emergency room or those whom provided me with life-saving triage.

My father and mother have never provided me with a copy of a medical report, or a hospital report, or a police report, of this incident.

I still carry the visible scar on my body from this event which I have no memory of to this very day.

At this point, I do not know what else to write here except: thank you for listening, thank you for donating, and thank you for appreciating every precious hour that you have available to you.