Help Will get top surgery!

Hello there! I’m Will, also known by some as Allen, and I’m a 19 year old transgender man from Texas who has finally made it to Washington after being stuck in Florida for three years. I spend most of my time coding old-web inspired websites through neocities, reading poetry and philosophy, journaling, working full-time at a paint warehouse, researching queer theory and environmentalism, and hanging out with my dog, Sonny. I was forced to drop out of college in 2023 as a result of mental issues from traumatic events, but I fully intend to go back to college for Liberal Arts (concentrations in journalism, sociology, philosophy, and political science) and Library Science. I want to become a copy editor, archivist, university librarian, and eventually a professor myself, and despite everything I’ve got faith I’ll make it.

I’ve been suffering from extreme breast dysphoria ever since puberty kicked in at 11. Before we even learned the word “transgender,” my closest friends from middle school recall me crying about having such a large chest so young, loudly complaining about how nobody should ever want them because of how they limited my movement in sports and made clothes fit horribly. I have been binding since age thirteen, which, despite being done with healthy limits, has caused visible mutilation to both breasts. They continued growing in extremely poorly, and now my breasts are sagging lumps of presumably dead tissue. I’ve lost almost all sensation in them, and they’ve been that way for years. There have been alarming concerns of cancer throughout my family tree. I’ve had intense back problems ever since I turned 14, which I assume is at the very least in part because of the couple-pound burdens hanging so low in my chest, as is the case with most other people with breasts. Those back issues have led to missed shifts and obligations due to being bed-ridden and entirely unable to move without being terrified of irreversible damage, or an ER bill I could never afford.

I have been desperate for a way to get this money for top surgery, as despite being a full-time (40hr/w) employee at $15.50 an hour for the past nine months, I haven’t even closed in on half of the funds necessary for the surgery alone, recovery time and recovery aids neglected. My time in a small town in Florida as a transgender man had been extremely hard to navigate, and I had to put aside life-saving gender affirming care in honor of saving money for anticipated housing deposits and fees, used car payments, insurances, gas, etc., while actively spending money on my psychiatrist’s care, prescribed anti-depressants, life-saving gender-affirming care in the form of prescribed testosterone hrt, and lunches for my labor-intensive job since my family has struggled with inflation costs on food for the past few months. Living so isolated has put a horrific strain on my mental health, causing multiple life-threatening scares, frequent depressive breakdowns, chronic lethargy, and an imbalanced gut. Leaving Florida was urgent to access trans-friendly healthcare, better-paying jobs, queer community, and a plethora of freedoms. Moving costs and cost of living have proved that I cannot save money at that pace again, as everything I have has to go straight to rent, car payments, gas, food, essential bills, various other bills such as cell, insurance, community college— the list goes on.

I sincerely, desperately need these weights lifted off me, literally and metaphorically. I cannot be forced to keep suffering with a glaring dysphoria that keeps me from living my life as freely as innumerable others can, just because my body doesn’t fit who I know I am. The cost of this gofundme is the anticipated cost of surgery across the United States, so that no matter which surgeons I see this total will be largely accurate. I will keep it updated with news about surgeons and my location, and if somehow the surgery is less than anticipated, anything remaining would go directly to recovery aids like food, water, medication, and accessibility and comfort aids such as shower mats and a mastectomy pillow. If I am blessed enough to find people willing to help me recover, part of this sum would go directly toward thanking them with food, gifts, events, whathaveyou. I fully intend to show my gratitude however possible, especially in such a vulnerable position like surgical recovery.

Thank you so, so dearly for any cent you may contribute! I hope this life treats you well! I don’t think I could describe how entirely hopeful and longing I am for the feeling of recognizing my body a little more, of the liberation I fully know this will bring me. Thank you dearly for giving me anything toward this chance ❤️‍

UPDATE: As of May 3rd, I am no longer in Florida, and have made it out west to Washington! Now I am kicking it into gear and saving up almost exclusively for surgery, as it is significantly more accessible over here. Cost of living, however, is exceedingly high, and I really need the help! As before, all money pooled here is strictly put away for surgery, not daily/monthly needs. If you’re here from my photos, please remember this is the only way I monetize them—if you’ve really liked them, please do me this favor!