Again and Again Until We Can’t Anymore

Hi! My name is Sarah Bloom. Anyone who’s had a conversation with me in the last year has probably heard about my thesis project, Again and Again Until We Can’t Anymore. Writing this script changed me in the deepest way. I came in broken, uncertain, still living in the pain and hurt of my past. I came out knowing who I was.

I had a hard time fitting in when I was a teenager. I felt this was due to some inherent wrongness in me. I couldn’t connect to the people around me the way that I needed to. When I was 16, I started going to parties and drinking and hooking up with guys. I let myself be exploited time and time again because I was so lonely I just wanted someone to like me. My entire existence became dedicated to getting other people’s approval.

I was sexually assaulted a few times. Kids in school would ask me about it and laugh. A video was sent around of me barely conscious performing a sexual act. I didn’t realize the video was being taken. I remember collapsing, lying there on the ground of someone’s backyard praying he would just leave me alone. He didn’t.

I wanted love more than anything in this time. I felt empty and helpless and I needed someone to save me because I felt I couldn’t save myself. I clung to the hope of a love that could redeem me. I found a million ways to give myself away.

It wasn’t really until I wrote this script that I began to heal from all of this. I took this deep pain inside of me and I wrote it from darkness into light. I wrote to heal. I wrote to save myself.

I wrote this script in the hopes that it could reach people like me, people who hurt the way I hurt, people who feel utterly alone in the world, and make them feel less alone. I wrote this because I think if I’d seen it when I was 16 I might have treated myself better. I wrote this because there is light. There is hope. There is a way out.

This is a proof of concept, so it’s just a fragment of the full script, but making this can lead to the full film being financed. I have full belief that this can happen.

These funds will be allocated to my crew, cinematographer Bruno D. Solis, actors Richard Lowenburg and Sophie Savides and production designer Violet Monsour to make the best possible product we can. Everyone working on this is incredibly talented and I believe with artists like this, we have the power to transform the world.

5$ donation: I will send you a song

20$ donation: I will draw you a picture of you

50$ donation: I will analyze your astrological chart

75$ donation: I will give you a 10-card tarot reading

100$ donation: I will make you a playlist and analyze your astrological chart

150$ donation: Special thanks in credits

250$ donation: 1.5 hour photoshoot on 35mm film

If you donate more than this I’ll give you all the things

Thank you for reading. If you have the capacity to, please donate. If not, share. I love you. Thank you.