Abandoned and Battling Cancer: Your Help Needed

I was diagnosed with a fast-growing cancer in May 2024. My husband acted like he would be there for me but left me on the first day of chemo back in September and we've been separated since. He won't face me or talk about what's going on. I should mention we were married for 34 years and he has never been there when I needed him. Unfortunately, I was fighting for the connection and marriage contract that I whole heatedly believed in because I was deeply in love. I was devastated to found out he's been having an affair for a long time, longer than I'd like to admit. I feel like a fool but now so many of his past actions make sence.

With me not working during my treatments due to complications, I have no source of income. He separateded his money years ago getting a separate account so I can't see what he's spending his money on. Now I know why. Our joint account remains open and he would transfer money in to it when needed as he makes 4 or 5 times more than I do each month. Now I find out he's been living an entire life behind the scene that I didn't know about and I have looked like the third party in my own marriage. I had been using a joint debit card for gas, food, and medications, but he has stopped any access to what he considers only his money. So now I have nothing and no one to ask. I don't have much family. My mother is almost 80 and she isn't able to help. I wasnt allowed to have friends so I don't have anyone to ask or lean on. I need to get out of this situation, but I was completely dependent on him. I need to pay for a lawyer and catch up on car payments, car insurance, food, gas, etc.

I put the bare minimum of what I need but would be thankful for anything I receive. I'm at a dead end and no one by my side . I gave him unconditional love and sat at home waiting for him, thinking he was working long hours, only to find out I wasted my life missing out on living while he was with other women. I'm a rare breed apparently because I gave him trust and honesty, and he played me. I found out he is hiding his money to not have to pay me anything, not only to live, which I'm in bed most of the time, but he thinks I don't deserve alimony or spousal support. My dedication to a man that I gave my love to only to be played has left me alone to fight cancer alone as he has alienated me. Life has been extremely lonely, and I'm afraid of what will be next. I have a long road ahead of me. Without treatment, I would have only lived 2 years, and they don't know what the treatment will do for me. It will extend my life past the 2 year mark but it might not be for much longer. No one knows at this point.

Thank you for listening to my depressing story. Any help your able to give would be appreciated more that you know. God Bless