Michelle, aka Lexi Kahn, has always been the one to come to the rescue of a friend in need but lately life has been full of obstacles for our low budget super hero. In the fall of 2013, Michelle lost her job with a company she helped start. It was a messy, crushing blow for this rocker. Michelle's situation really escalated when she was hospitalized following a psychotic episode in February of this year. Since then, she has been in and out of the hospital trying to deal with clinical depression and extreme anxiety. Lexi and her husband, Joe have been struggling with paying for mounting hospital bills, household expenses, medications, and therapists all on Joe's income. She is covered under Joe's insurance but it just doesn't cover enough.
We are a group of friends that miss our Michelle, aka Lexi, more than she likely realizes. She has begun writing again and we are getting glimpses of what she is feeling: http://superlowbudge.blogspot.com/
"I decided to go to the ER because I was already at the hospital seeing my shrink and after that appointment was over (her trying to calm with words) I stuck around at her suggestion writing down my thoughts in the cafeteria. "You have a flood of thoughts in your head, take this pad and paper and write it all down." I tried to, but I couldn't even sit still. I tried to quell the panic with deep breathing exercises. But the panic didn't go away, it only escalated and so instead of getting on a bus to come home I went to the ER front desk and said 'I'm having a panic attack.' They took me right in. When the jittery feeling left my body I felt so relieved I wanted to cry. Because for two days my whole body was vibrating, my heart was racing, and I could not sit still-- that is not right. It was like a prolonged panic attack. I'm grateful that they could help me, because I was in full-on mode where I wanted to crawl out of my skin. I didn't cry but I had a feeling that, had I gone home, I would have started to sob. Who knows what Joe would have found when he got home. Today I feel way better.So I've been suffering with depression and anxiety for the last four months. It all started in November when I lost my job, but really ramped up in February when I had a psychotic episode. More about that later. It was epic. Right now I'm as stable as I've been yet and am taking it day to day."
We know Lexi has touched many of you. She was a Catholic school girl, high school drama queen, college smart ass, rock and roll mega god, and a logistics genius. Now she's a superhero who has lost her cape.
Many people have expressed an interest in trying to help Michelle in some way and this is a way they can help.Please help us lighten the load she is carrying while she tries to find or recreate herself. Contribute what you can, when you can. Every dollar will help.
Thank you for your support and contributions.