A single father's struggle for stability.

This is Alan.

My ex husband who is raising our four children alone right now while I recover from addiction.

When I met Alan, I was a single mother of Lili and Daisi, the two older girls he is now raising. He took on the role of their dad without hesitation.

I believe he always wanted to be a father, just not like this.

During our marriage we had two more children together, our only son 6 year old Raiden and another beautiful daughter Rubi who is 3. I have struggled with addiction heavily over the last 4 years and as a result of that, he has been left to raise these babies without me.

Despite the heavy load I laid on him, he never once shamed me or refused to bear it. This man has been a pillar of strength and endurance in the storm that I have caused.

Right now, Alan is living in an apartment with all four of our babies, working full time, donating blood when he can, applying for all the assistance a single father has available to him and life keeps kicking him down.

He is on the verge of eviction.

This would mean that he would have to quit the job he loves and relocate himself and all four of our babies to Prescott, 2 hours away from me.

I have 8 months clean in recovery and am working very hard to get in a place to being able to take back some of that load, I'm just not able to help the way I wish I could yet.

It goes against both of our stubborn instincts to ask for help but he needs it, no, he deserves it.

He deserves to be able to breathe. He deserves to have peace of mind. I would have lost my children if it weren't for him and I will do everything in my power to show my gratitude for that.

He just needs enough to feel secure where he's at again.